Saturday, February 28, 2009

The Words Of The Day

What's the use of violence/fistfights? It only cause you and the other to get hurt. The next thing you know, the police knows about it. Not saying I'm too scared to fight anymore, but it is a waste of time. Fight because of staring, banging to each other or walking with open 'wings'. If fight for my family, I don't mind. But because of you staring, I won't want to cause problems. You're still a kid to me, you're 2 years younger. Remember that.

Sorry I didn't post on Wednesday. I brought my laptop to school, but I was too busy continueing on my 'project'. Happy to see it done back again. (:

I had Prize Giving Ceremony cum PTA. Watching friends being on stage made my mind start to imagine things. I suddenly became down. Not even wanting to share my happiness with them. I was rude to Mr Paul Lee. Screw him for not letting me remove access stuffs from my anus.

6 words that made me smile while I went back home. She called just to say she missed me very much. So you have guessed it. She said, "Dan, I miss you very much". For the first time, those words do touch my heart. I almost teared along Clementi Ave 2. Called just to say she missed me very much, how sweet can it get? Somemore, we've gone through lots of stuff. How many lovers get involve in our relationship, nothing can change the way I think about her. I miss you more, Dee!

Friday, February 20, 2009

Lossing Is Never The End

Lossing is what I call a lesson. When you lose, never give up hope. What you have to do is, learn from the mistakes you've made. Keep your head up. In life there is obstacles for you to go through. Some easy obstacles, some hard ones.

We lost against Beatty. Everyone was down, even me. I was crying alone at one side. We lost due to my mistakes. There's so many free kicks that I kept missing. I knew I should have done better, but my mind was completely somewhere else. I lost my concentration during the match. And I'm sorry about that.

With 2 more games to play, all we have to do is pray. Pray hard to God for his assistance. We need to win both games in order to qualify. There's 50-50 chance of winning AMKSS. I would just want to bring glory to GESS.

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My tagboard has came up to life all of a sudden. Some praising about my English, some about Taufik Batisah and some about missing me. I do miss alot of people lately. Most importantly, I do miss Balqis alot. Meet soon okay?? And thanks for tagging. Without you people tagging, I'll think that my blog is dead and then I'll delete this blog. So keep tagging people!

For your info, I'll update only on any of the weekends and either Wednesday or Thursday. Wednesday and Thursday is my free period day cause I've drop my POA so I could bring my laptop to school on those days.

Have a good weekend readers!

Sunday, February 15, 2009

A Night That Changed Everything

A night in school completely changed my whole life. I was really down till I don't have anymore hope to live in this world. I felt like killing myself. I had my body balanced on a 15 storey building last night. It's not a joke. I did felt like killing myself. To end my life and to end the problems that I've cause for the whole world. I'm nothing but problems to everyone.

I asked myself, why should I end my life for the wrongs that I've done? Why can't I improve on it? Why can't I learn the mistakes that I've done and change myself to a better person? Questions start popping out of my head. One by one, I can't answer them.

$25.69. The numbers from the taxi meter was read by a malay taxi driver. He charged me with only $20. He said, "Simpanlah duit kau, you'll need it". All I did was smiled and thanked him. I stepped out of the vehicle and I saw the quote written on a wall of the school. That as many hands built a house, So many hearts make a school. I was outside Gan Eng Seng School. The school that had changed my life, changed me from a boy to a man. I was thankful that I posted to GESS.

I tried climbing up a window of the stairs, but it was too high for me. I can't get to the classroom blocks so I just laid down on the arena. Head's facing up to the dark sky. I closed my eyes, picturing every moment that I had since I entered this school. Suddenly, someone tapped me on my shoulders. I was shocked and scared at the moment, when someone asked why I was in school. I was trespassing, that was the reason why I was scared, afraid of getting scolded by someone higher than me. An old malay uncle, in his 50s or 60s, was the one who tapped on my shoulders.

"I'm stressed up," I murmured to him in malay. He asked why and what happen. I got up to my legs and started walking.

I told every single details that happen in my whole life. Not even one was not told. We sat outside GESSCOVE. He told me about a story of a man who nearly lost everything in his life due to his rudeness and selfishness. The story even had a meaning in it. I was told not to share it with anyone. What is told there should be left there.

"God gives us one chance to live but many chances for us to change into a better person," he whispered to my ears and left. I tried to follow him but his pace was too fast. He turned to the classroom block and he was gone. Nowhere to be found. Never in my life, I've seen an old man walked that fast before. I clearly forgot to ask him questions. Who is he? Why is he there? What was his motive to talk to me about that story? One thing that really gives me the creeps, he does looks like my late grandfather. Was it just my imagination? I don't even know.

As I walked home, the words that he said kept repeating in my head. I realised I was in the wrong. Its time for a change. I'm sorry for everything. I swear to you, everything has changed.

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Valentines Day.

Happy Valentines Day!


I am not going out on Valentines Day. Its not that I don't have a date. To bring out someout, you got to have money. I don't even want to spend on it yet. Saving it for emergency purposes. Remembered last year, I skipped the last period to buy flowers for Ain. It was a last minute plan lah. Wrote poems on a paper too. Tak romantic eh? One day, I'll bring you out. One day, not now.

Met Ain in the morning. We decided to come late for school cause we're damn hungry. My stomach and her's was making lots of noise then. Bought food from Old Chang Kee and proceeded to Rokidol. We ate there as if there's no school. Reached school around 8.15am.

Total Defence Day is stupid. Completely stupid. Fire alarm will be switched on, and students were to assemble in the field. During war, anybody could attack us that easily. I didn't knew that it was Total Defence Day until she mentioned it. No foods were sold by the canteen stall holders but just porridge. Luckily we had eaten breakfast. If not, we're starving like hell.

School was really boring. 4 days I'm living like this. Its good though cause now I can stay back for extra lessons, stay back to seek teachers help. I need help for Chemistry!

Talking about Chemistry, something bad just happen. When I finally had the morale to study hard, shit always happen. With still 15mins more to school ends, Ms Tho just left class just like that. How the hell can I start studying hard when this things happen?

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Saturday, February 7, 2009

Pool, anyone?

MSN IS PISSING ME OFF!
For like 1029472341 times I've been trying to get online. And after I came online, a few minutes later I was offline. It goes on and on. Screw MSN lah! Sorry people if this irritates you.

I woke up at around 12pm today. I wanted to sleep till 7pm! Damn it lah! The reason I woke up was because someone called me. Guess who? Butterfly called. Hak! Shocked? I was shocked too. She asked me to accompany her around Jurong Point to buy things. The reason I agreed was because she was the time-waster for me so that I won't be too early at Haqiz's house.

Nothing much happen, really. I didn't talk much to her. My mind was completely blank when we're walking around the extended mall. So all I did was kept my mouth shut till she asked me something. Neither I want to fall in love with her nor her to fall in love with me. I want us to remain friends. Cause you're no longer my type.

Went to Haqiz's house. We watched Ninja Warrior through YouTube. Some made me laugh, some made my jaw drops. We talked about soccer after that. He might be coming for my training on Monday. I want our training to be more tougher. Talking about soccer, our match was abandoned due to the bloody blink on the lightning signal. We're leading 3-1 then.

Izdi and Izham also known as the 'Iz' asked me to join them to play pool. My hands were shaking whenever I'm holding the stick. Soon I master it! I almost won Izdi on the first game. Then I won him after that game. How cool? Almost all long shots. They call me the 'Talent King'. Muahuahua.

I've been bloghopping since just now. Bored yknow! I found this blogger. Her english, 1 word; Wow! She wrote this. Either her or someone else.

Love is sometimes denied, sometimes lost, sometimes unrecognized, but in the end, always found with no regrets, forever valued and kept treasured.

5 more minutes to your birthday. Should I waste my prepaid on you? After I send to that message, what will happen? I want no trouble.

Thursday, February 5, 2009

2 words, Thank You

"Perempuan tengok muka kau, confirm tak nak".

I finally realised why. You spoke with truth and braveness. You never seemed to care of how I will feel after I heard those words. But I thank you for being truthful to me. Right infront of my face, you spoke those words. With you saying it, I will always be boastful, vain and cocky.

First match was against KCPSS. We drawed 3-3. First half scoreline was 3-1. My freekick almost went in but luck was on their side. As soon as I was being subtituted by Joel. It turned upside down. The game suddenly was snatched from our hands to theirs. Tomorrow will be facing Guanyang Sec. We'll bring in the good news, so wish us luck!

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Co-Owner -.-'

Eh mat, meet me tomorrow at 6:45 (miss 2 trains at most). The same place as this morning.
See ya with Izham (L)