Invisible To Your Eyes

You saw me standing, the same place where we first met but you did nothing. I was waiting, waiting for this day to happen. Waiting for us to bump to each other again. But this time it felt different. You saw me, stared at me and you left. Not even a smile on your face. I didn't asked for more, at least I got to see you face again today. Till when am I visible to your eyes? I need you, I want you and most importantly, I love you.
- Unkindness of Love

Back again at that story. Yes, yes and yes! I am writing again. Its been so long since I've touched on the particular story. Sorry if it took so long for me to complete it. There are names that I should not mention, so I have to edit it all back again.

There's a soccer tournament at Fico later at 2pm. But my team won't compete if there's lots of teams competing. My stupid, gonggong friend fill in the form late that we can't play. All we could do is to pray that there's not enough team, so then we could play. If we can't play, I've got no plans tomorrow! Ashaa, any plans?

Ashaa is my newly added friend on msn but we knew each other quite long now. She's my no.1 fan! Seriously shocked when my cousin told me about her. Haha, tak mau kembang! I know you're smiling widely right now, kankankan?

I want to sleep! Goodbye and goodnight!

HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY, SITI NADIA BINTE AMRAN!Yes, yes. Its her birthday today. I could get sick of her when she starts counting down to this day. I was well, quite suprise to know that I was the first to wish her face-to-face cause I was the only friend she was with before she went home. IF only I was rich, I could buy her anything. IF only I had $20 in my hands right now, I could have treated her to Pizza Hut with Sbls, Nadd, Faiz, ZhaoLiang and etc. It was my plan, treating everyone to Pizza Hut but my money was all gone due to some activity that made me so damn hungry. One day, I'll promise that I'll give you a treat someday ok?

I finally got to see Hanisha's face with my stupid eyes. She saw me every morning before school at Redhill MRT and I don't even recognise anybody that was there. Students that I saw everyday was GESS, Henderson, Queenstown, Bukit Merah and Tanglin Special. I don't even bother to look at everyone of them. Its better to listen to my iPod than staring at everyone's faces.

Talking about iPod. I am seriously pissed off with this small, stupid gadget that I have. Every one month I have to reformat it cause my iTunes can't be read it. I have this feeling of throwing it away or sell it. If I sell it, I'll buy another iPod. But should I?

Another topic to talk about is love. I don't understand why. Why do we have to fall in love? Why do we fall in love? Is it a natural thing? I would rather concentrate on my studies than holding hands 24 hours with a girl. But I can help it. I have fall in love. I fell in love with someone who is attached. What's worst, the guy that she's with is my friend. Oh well, one of her friends is hinting me that she has already attached and to get lost from her life. Can I have 'us' back?

Cintamu Tidak Bermakna

'Lama bercinta, bukan tanda sayang.
Sayang menyayang, bukan tanda setia.
Setia di bibir, tak pasti di hati'
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Usah diturut kata hati - Data

Cry. That's all we do when we're heartbroken. Crying in pain as if she were to return back to your arms. Why? I don't really understand why. A man like him, who has patience, who loved you so much, who would sacrifise everything. Why must you leave? Both of you were an examples of love that were never to be broken. Both of you were an example for me. But things happen. I didn't really expect it to happen. I am in shock. Cheer up, no point of crying. The first is always a painful one unless you survived.

Finally and yes, I am blogging. Ashaa, nampak! Dah update eh. Its been so long. I had trouble with studies but I am trying my best to cope with it. O'Level results has been revealed. Some happy faces, some sad faces. A friend of mine got points that I never in my whole life will achieve it, he was crying outside the hall. Imagine that. I can see that his parents have high expectations on him. Why? Why do you set high expectations on your child? You want their money in future? To me, parents who have high expectations are selfish, they don't think of their children.

I'm off to sleep now. I might be blogging tomorrow, see if the amount of hmwks given.

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Blogger To Be Dead For Awhile.

Sorry for not posting lately. I've been busy. Homework, revision and stuff. I still have a Malay book review to do which I really hate doing it. So this means, I won't be online and blogging that much. But I promise you; when I come back, I'll have something interesting for you to read. Ok, tata!

2008; The Sounds That Are Never To Be Forgotten

As I hear everyone counting down to the very last second of 2008, I was brought back to the moments that is going to pass by and never to step again. I was brought back to some happy and unhappy times of my great life during this unforgettable year. I would be proud to tell my kids about my life one day, especially the year 2008.

There was this moment that made me the happiest man on earth. Never have I been so glad to find this girl. She's the friendliest and a very kind-hearted girl. Her name was kind of special and unique. That one word just meant so much for me. Her name was Balqis, Balqis binte Razak. She's the first one to show me what love meant on earth. Her touch, her hugs and her kisses were so special. Everytime we touch, I have this feeling of not letting her go. As if I want her to stay right by myside everyday. But things get out of hand, I did some mistakes that made me regret doing it. Our hearts went seperate ways and never to come back in the land of hope and love.

Mistakes. Everyone does mistakes. Its our decision to change it, take that mistake that you've done, realise and improve. Everyone needs a second chance to shine. But when you change to a better man, don't forget about consequences. Everything in this world has consequences.

As school starts on 2nd January 2008, I felt ashamed to be in school. I was repeated again at secondary 3 and I didn't knew much of my juniors. I remember having a fight with someone due to staring one another. Staring was one of the things that I hated much, especially at a place where you knew nobody. So one by one, I stared back at them. 2008 made me wild. 2008 made me knew more about gangs and culture but never have I fall into their traps.

As they starts the countdown to a new chapter in everyone's lifes, I saw a star. A shining one. I remember Hajar texting me, to make a wish on that shining star during the countdown. I made a wish. Not one, but two. I hope in 2009, I realise my mistakes in 2008 and never to repeat them again. And lastly, the wish that I really hope to come true. With whatever I do, I want to change people's lifes. I want to see a smile in everyone's faces. I don't care if I have to go through a hard time or I'm the one who has to suffer, all I want is everyone to realise that living on earth is not forever. God gave you one life, live it to the fullest.

From God we came,
To God we will return.

Yours Truely,
Mohammad Danial.
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It's 5.00am and I'm not asleep yet. Few more minutes left for me to prepare for school. I just can't wait to meet my friends and teachers. I had a chat with Faiz just now. I asked him about his life during 2008 and he said that he finally understand alot right now. He made me realise who was I. Till now, I still don't know who am I.

Faiz; You're a good kid you know that? Just that you try too hard.
Me; Too hard? What you mean?
Faiz; Like, when you put you mind onto something. You do it and you do and you do it. You're trying too hard. Maybe that's the reason why you're stress out in life. Learn to relax dude. God only gave us one chance to live but he gave us lots of chances to be who we want to be.

After all this, now I am finally ready to say this; 'Goodbye 2008, Hello 2009!'

Goodbye 2008, Hello 2009!

Yes, its the new year today. And yes, its time for everyone to change.
'Buang yang keruh, ambil yang jernih.'
'Let the past go, let bygones be bygones.'

I went out with Izham and Izdi on new year's eve. It was a last minute plan though. I didn't want to go out cause I wanna watch movies on HBO. And I felt lazy to go out. I was watching Transformers when Izham called me which is around 8pm. It was my first time watching Transformers, I know I'm slow, and I want to watch till the end but that fat pig asked me to come down Clementi right away. So I did. But I didn't know what's the after the countdown. Izham didn't told me that he was going KTV with his cousins after the countdown, that bloody pig.

So it was just me, Izham and Izdi watching countdown. The rest of Clementi peeps aren't there cause they're out with family. Izdi brought us to some unknown place in my life to watch the fireworks. All I could see was construction site, how to see the fireworks? So I was like whining and whining to go Marina/Esplanade cause I know lots of 'people' are there. Yes people, youknowiknow. So we ate at lau pa sat and proceeded to some place full of bayars! cb, you freaks smell like rotten cheesedale sia. Go back to your country lah!

We sat at some place infront of a bar. The smell of alcohol makes me want to drink and get drunk. We sat there waiting for the countdown. Then we started talking about 2008. I realise 2008 does changed most of us. But to me, it changed the whole me and it felt good.

Then the countdown starts. Fireworks were incredible. Fireworks reminds me of that someone. We promised eaceh other that we will watch it together someday. Yes, I still do remember that. Ain, one day we'll watch together. I won't break the promise, I swear.

Izham left with his cousins and it was left with me and Izdi. And I felt uncomfortable, not because of him but I felt somethings wrong. So I went back home. Luckily that my house is just like a 10minutes walk from Boon Lay interchange, if not I'll be regretting of going back home.

I got a shock of my life went I entered the living room. I saw something shiny on the dinner table. So I switched on the lights. And yes!! I've got Taufik's new album! I was like jumping all around the house with the album in my hands. Hahaha, phew. That was what I wanted for new year's gift. Thank you, thank you!

I didn't took much picture cause my cellphone camera is an ass. Fucked up camera. I want a camera!! Ok, bye!

No mood to update more. I'm dye my hair black now!