When There's Life, There's Problems.

After reading the particular post in that blog, I was wondering whether are we still kids and not a grown up yet. What did we do wrong? We did not pick up fights, problems came to us. The words written on the personal blog was way too harsh. Why to the world? Why do you want to tell the world about us? Why can't you talk about it to us before you wrote those things? I may not be your ex-schoolmate but I'm one of the friends that you always slack with. Anyways, the pondok is open for everybody. We're just waiting for your return.

I'll be back with more of my long post. I'm sure you'll missed it.

The End Has Finally Happen

Goodbye to 18 March 2009, hello freedom!

Days past so quickly and I wasn't sure of the decision yet. Do I have the courage to end it or suffer along with her? Family members and friends didn't like the idea of me being with her, although they gave the 'cool' face.

It was 7am and the sun rises above the dark skies. I was ready to end it then but something tells me not to. My hands were shaking badly, so badly till she wondered why. So I just canceled out the plan to end the relationship. Cause I can't bare to see her cry infront of me again, not this time.

Just imagine the pain that I was going through. I had no time for her anymore cause I had to take care of my brother for like every single day. And the distance from her place to my place was too far and by the time I reached home will be late. Somewhat, I have to hang around at Clementi. If only she could be there everywhere I go, it would be easier for me. So I decided to end it.

The next day, we're over. Just like that my love for her had fade. She wasn't understanding at all. What makes me say that was because of what she said in the text message. This is what she wrote; "So friends are more important than me?"

Enough of talking about her. Makes me fired up. So bye! Will post again ASAP.

Still Inactive, Sorry!

Hi! I'm sorry for I have been so inactive for a very long time. My comp is still down and I am having a very hard time to get it fixed back. Anybody who knew how to solve this fucked up thingy, please try to contact me. Thank you!

Well, I'm basically at my cousin's crib, using her comp while everyone is busy looking at what am I typing. Screw them anyways. So, back to my life. Its been boring lately. Nothing much happens. Exams are over and I am so the very happy babe. Eventhough exams are on, I still don't know why I don't take it seriously. During the papers, I slept the whole paper. I don't care less about exams. I did study. Yes, I did people. Study for like less than 1hour 15mins. At least I did study.

Okay, anyways. Some are curious about my relationship with Zurfiqah. Its not going quite well lately. Everyday meet, everyday fight. But the love is still not fading though. She's not the best there is YET, i know who's the best all this while. Nadia, you-know-i-know-they-don't-know. I miss her soooo much!

Anyways, talking about missing people. I miss lots of people sia. First of, Nurdiana Erniwaty Binte Ismail, Balqis Binte Razak. 2 person that I want to meet so damn badly. But when? Tell me when.

Okay, I'm done now. I have lots to do now. I'll try to blog ASAP. Sorry readers about the wait.

112th

Am I really that heartless, Danial? I feel both bad and mad. :-(

Awaaay

Hi, I've forgotten to do what I was ordered to, which is to blog that Danial would be inactive for the time being due to break-down of his computer. He's doing great so far, I supposed, and so is his relationship with Ika. He'll be back when it is time.

With luv, Nadia

Never Fails

I'll love you till the very end.

I might be on haitus due to lack of study and lack of rest. I'm trying my very best to get my life as free from any meet ups with anyone as possible. I'm sorry if I have to cancel out your plans with me. I understand now that I have to balance out time with lots of stuff. Study and rest are the first one for me to catch up with. But I'll blog every week, if possible. Talking about every week, I won't be out every Saturday with TKR anymore. So sorry guys, you know your mistakes. Change it.

I'm having trouble with this group of 'friends' lately. They have been the most annoying group I have ever known. What I know and what I think is that, they're are jealous with me having baby right by my side.

One of the members had and is having a crush with baby, but I'm cool with that cause he was a close friend of mine. So I didn't do anything with him, but ignored. When the ignoring continues, he kept climbing on my head. He kept sending text messages to baby, and she too could repied back. My brain cells when bursting when I found out that someone told him that me and baby broke up, which was a lie. So we got up to a fight. I had prepared a text message if we really had to break us up.

But things went safe. Nothing had happen to us. We thought of building our trust by not sending text messages to each of the person that me and her hates. She agreed, me too.

Readers, give me some tips to what I am suppose to do with this guy who has been interfering our relationship. What is the best way to do it? I don't want to hurt him, cause he was my 'close-friend' and I still treat him as a brother of mine.

Friend or Foe?

Some friends envy and wants you to suffer.

Some friends can be or are like this. Most of my primary school friends were like this. So its easy for me to see who would be the one stabbing each other from the back. I was stabbed not once, but many times. Not one, but two person stabbing slowly on my back. I ignored, I just acted as if I didn't know. I acted as if I was stupid, when I know I wasn't.

This particular person was a close friend. Super close that I have never had any friends at all. I didn't treat him as my close friend cause I know stabbing would come sooner or later. From the expression on his face, I know something bad would turn soon. And it came sooner than I expected. I saw the expression, the roll of the eyes, the fast opening and closure of the lips. It was alright though. I just said, 'If you hate me, tell me straight to my face'.

Me and baby fought because of this. I was scared. Not scared for the fact I'm having conflict with her family, but scared our relationship will be thrown down the drain. I didn't want to make things worst, so I was the one apologising to the other party. Everything went fine. But will it last? Only God knows.

Our love shines from the dark sky down to Earth,

Like a star shining around the solar system.

You're the only one that I want,

You're the only one that I love.