I Miss You So

Great, you're back!
I miss you so.

eff-you-see-kay why-ohh-you

Sometimes beginning aren't so simple,
Sometimes goodbye is the only way

Lonely. Everytime the word is spoken, whether it came out from my mouth or my heart, a sharp pain came poking through my heart. It's a common thing for me to be lonely. Since kindergarden, primary school and even secondary school. I was always the uncool one.

Respect. I never fail to respect others until I realised that I never received any. You can say that I've changed. I've changed for you people to realise that there's none out there like me. But.. things became more haywire.

Punctuality. The most important thing in my life cause since kid, I was trained to be punctual. I was always the earliest. I could still be 1 hour earlier eventhough the meeting place is at the other end of this island. Every outing, every slacking day, I was always the first one. I was the furthest one whereas you were the closest one. The most closest one, just a few meters away from meeting place, can still be one hour late. I thought of a plan for you to feel how it feels to be waiting for someone who is late. But from what I know, I was never one hour late, maximum arrival time will be less than half an hour. Some are okay with it, some aren't. When I think about it, I do feel guilty and bad, yes I do. But do you? After being late, do you feel bad?

I had a moment of peace after all the talks. I realise something that I never had thought of. The relationship between me and my friends gone amiss ever since I got back this attached life. Yes, matter of fact it is. Everything changes because of this status. I never spend much time like we used to. Raise your hands if you think its true.

Time for a change. Goodbye readers. Oh ya, I'm at Izham's house.

'Even the greatest have to suffer sometime' - Muhammad Ali

Friendship Is Never A Problem Since This Happen

Specially for you,

From what I think, it's because of the stupid, selfish post, things has changed. Did you see the change yet? Did you see the so called 'attendance'? We are getting smaller due to your post. No more fun during our lepak, no more activity, no other conversation.

Tell me, what kind of lesson should we learnt? By your stupid, selfish words in your blog can make us learn? Well, to me it only brings out the anger in everyone of us. You said you got your ways? Well, writing in your blog is not a good kind of way. For your information, you are trying to tell the world that we are changing to one of the bad kinds of people out there. That is your way, huh? I'll remember these words, 'Jaga hati and perasaan korang.'

Day by day, from Jurong West to Clementi, 45mins ride, I came down to kill the time. I was the furthest among all, I came first while you people took your time. I'm not mad at all cause at least you people came down. But now, things has changed. 4 is the maximum number of people present down there. Lets see how many more can survive your selfish words.

When There's Life, There's Problems.

After reading the particular post in that blog, I was wondering whether are we still kids and not a grown up yet. What did we do wrong? We did not pick up fights, problems came to us. The words written on the personal blog was way too harsh. Why to the world? Why do you want to tell the world about us? Why can't you talk about it to us before you wrote those things? I may not be your ex-schoolmate but I'm one of the friends that you always slack with. Anyways, the pondok is open for everybody. We're just waiting for your return.

I'll be back with more of my long post. I'm sure you'll missed it.

The End Has Finally Happen

Goodbye to 18 March 2009, hello freedom!

Days past so quickly and I wasn't sure of the decision yet. Do I have the courage to end it or suffer along with her? Family members and friends didn't like the idea of me being with her, although they gave the 'cool' face.

It was 7am and the sun rises above the dark skies. I was ready to end it then but something tells me not to. My hands were shaking badly, so badly till she wondered why. So I just canceled out the plan to end the relationship. Cause I can't bare to see her cry infront of me again, not this time.

Just imagine the pain that I was going through. I had no time for her anymore cause I had to take care of my brother for like every single day. And the distance from her place to my place was too far and by the time I reached home will be late. Somewhat, I have to hang around at Clementi. If only she could be there everywhere I go, it would be easier for me. So I decided to end it.

The next day, we're over. Just like that my love for her had fade. She wasn't understanding at all. What makes me say that was because of what she said in the text message. This is what she wrote; "So friends are more important than me?"

Enough of talking about her. Makes me fired up. So bye! Will post again ASAP.

Still Inactive, Sorry!

Hi! I'm sorry for I have been so inactive for a very long time. My comp is still down and I am having a very hard time to get it fixed back. Anybody who knew how to solve this fucked up thingy, please try to contact me. Thank you!

Well, I'm basically at my cousin's crib, using her comp while everyone is busy looking at what am I typing. Screw them anyways. So, back to my life. Its been boring lately. Nothing much happens. Exams are over and I am so the very happy babe. Eventhough exams are on, I still don't know why I don't take it seriously. During the papers, I slept the whole paper. I don't care less about exams. I did study. Yes, I did people. Study for like less than 1hour 15mins. At least I did study.

Okay, anyways. Some are curious about my relationship with Zurfiqah. Its not going quite well lately. Everyday meet, everyday fight. But the love is still not fading though. She's not the best there is YET, i know who's the best all this while. Nadia, you-know-i-know-they-don't-know. I miss her soooo much!

Anyways, talking about missing people. I miss lots of people sia. First of, Nurdiana Erniwaty Binte Ismail, Balqis Binte Razak. 2 person that I want to meet so damn badly. But when? Tell me when.

Okay, I'm done now. I have lots to do now. I'll try to blog ASAP. Sorry readers about the wait.

112th

Am I really that heartless, Danial? I feel both bad and mad. :-(