It all started from me. I am the one who is to be blame. I shouldn't have done that. I always never use the brains that god gave me. I'm sorry you cried because of me.
I gave her number to him. I made her love him. I made them together. If only I knew his history, I won't gave him her number. Now 2 girls fought because of this. Blame me people! Just blame me. I've always messed up people's life. When was the last time I did a good deed? I guess I've never done that.
I've been crying for 3 days. I can't help it. Whenever I'm alone, tears just drip from my eyes. I miss her so much. I miss hearing her voice before going to bed. I feel like I'm seriously useless.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Monday, October 20, 2008
Happiest Day Turns To Worst Day
Today, we struck our 1st month together. Never have I had this long relationship. It was kind of awkward for me. Planned to go some place where you can see everyone with their luggage. But we ended up lepaking at hougang.
Early morning, the sounds of my phone ringing can be heard. When I wanted to picked up, the fella hung up on me. I saw 2 messages. First was from my cousin, the other was from Anna. Anna said, 'U retain eh.' I thought it was a prank. So I asked her to call me. It was true. I'm retaining again. I tried my best to study. Its either I didn't study enough or I'm stupid. I guess I'm stupid. That's what my aunties use to say about me. Mom tried to appeal to the principal.
I went out of my house with that angry, dissapointment in my face. I was on the way to hougang. Everything was like normal. Baby was calling me every 10 minutes to check where am I. When I reached hougang mall, I didn't even get a call from baby. Something's wrong. So I just waited 5 minutes outside the mall, waiting for the phone to ring. It didn't happen. So I walked up to where she and her friends would always be. Finally we met at the last level. She said somthing's wrong with my phone. So I off-ed and on-ed it. The phone reads, 'SIM card registration failed'.
How am I going to contact with baby? I can't call, she can't call. Great! Only hope is through MSN. Now I'm sitting here while typing, waiting for her to get online. But I don't think it will happen. :(
I don't mind retaining again. But not contacting with my baby, is a nightmare. I can't imagine how life would get in the next few days.
Baby, wait for end of month kay? I promise you everything's going to be fine. I love you!
Early morning, the sounds of my phone ringing can be heard. When I wanted to picked up, the fella hung up on me. I saw 2 messages. First was from my cousin, the other was from Anna. Anna said, 'U retain eh.' I thought it was a prank. So I asked her to call me. It was true. I'm retaining again. I tried my best to study. Its either I didn't study enough or I'm stupid. I guess I'm stupid. That's what my aunties use to say about me. Mom tried to appeal to the principal.
I went out of my house with that angry, dissapointment in my face. I was on the way to hougang. Everything was like normal. Baby was calling me every 10 minutes to check where am I. When I reached hougang mall, I didn't even get a call from baby. Something's wrong. So I just waited 5 minutes outside the mall, waiting for the phone to ring. It didn't happen. So I walked up to where she and her friends would always be. Finally we met at the last level. She said somthing's wrong with my phone. So I off-ed and on-ed it. The phone reads, 'SIM card registration failed'.
How am I going to contact with baby? I can't call, she can't call. Great! Only hope is through MSN. Now I'm sitting here while typing, waiting for her to get online. But I don't think it will happen. :(
I don't mind retaining again. But not contacting with my baby, is a nightmare. I can't imagine how life would get in the next few days.
Baby, wait for end of month kay? I promise you everything's going to be fine. I love you!
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Story Of Life
Mom told me about a story of her friend who just passed away on Sunday, 12/10/2008. Her name was Rohani (not her real name). She died of cancer.
She was 7 months pregnant before marriage. And as usual, people would start talking bad things because of this. On her marriage day, it is obvious that there's a life inside her. But she kept herself up, never to give up hope. She was married to a man who was a manager of a big company. She thought live would be great with him.
Few months after her marriage, her father-in-law was bedridden and she was force to take care of him while her mother-in-law was enjoying outside.
Few years later, she had 3 children. She then start to have family problems. She had to find a job so that she could release her stress. One day, her brother came out of jail due to drugs. He came to her house with his girlfriend. Rohani brought them to her house, make it a home for them to stay. But things wasn't what she expected. The girlfriend of her brother really took the house as her own, controlling every single thing. She taught the daughters how to be rude to their mom. Rohani's husband fell for that girl. Rohani simply couldn't take it anymore so she applied for a divorce. That house has two names; the husband and her. But she didn't not fight for her rights. She left without the house and her children. When she left, she found out that she had cancer but she didn't tell anyone about it and simply just did nothing.
5 years later after telling her family members that she had cancer, she finally reunited with one of her daughters. Living in a small HDB flat at havelock road with her mother-in-law. Her mom came in to visit her. To her suprise, the house was messy and dirty. Its like a warzone. Her mom took her back home and took care of her. Then she died few months later.
On the other end, her ex-husband was still living with the girl. The girl was always not home. He, who was a supervisor of a big company was sacked. And now he's working as a school security guard. Her husband really regretted of his mistakes. Crying on her funeral can never bring her back to life.
This story taught me a lesson. When you're married, love someone who really loves and take care of the children. Not to love someone just because he/she makes you happy.
She was 7 months pregnant before marriage. And as usual, people would start talking bad things because of this. On her marriage day, it is obvious that there's a life inside her. But she kept herself up, never to give up hope. She was married to a man who was a manager of a big company. She thought live would be great with him.
Few months after her marriage, her father-in-law was bedridden and she was force to take care of him while her mother-in-law was enjoying outside.
Few years later, she had 3 children. She then start to have family problems. She had to find a job so that she could release her stress. One day, her brother came out of jail due to drugs. He came to her house with his girlfriend. Rohani brought them to her house, make it a home for them to stay. But things wasn't what she expected. The girlfriend of her brother really took the house as her own, controlling every single thing. She taught the daughters how to be rude to their mom. Rohani's husband fell for that girl. Rohani simply couldn't take it anymore so she applied for a divorce. That house has two names; the husband and her. But she didn't not fight for her rights. She left without the house and her children. When she left, she found out that she had cancer but she didn't tell anyone about it and simply just did nothing.
5 years later after telling her family members that she had cancer, she finally reunited with one of her daughters. Living in a small HDB flat at havelock road with her mother-in-law. Her mom came in to visit her. To her suprise, the house was messy and dirty. Its like a warzone. Her mom took her back home and took care of her. Then she died few months later.
On the other end, her ex-husband was still living with the girl. The girl was always not home. He, who was a supervisor of a big company was sacked. And now he's working as a school security guard. Her husband really regretted of his mistakes. Crying on her funeral can never bring her back to life.
This story taught me a lesson. When you're married, love someone who really loves and take care of the children. Not to love someone just because he/she makes you happy.
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
I Super Duper Miss You.
Its been more than 1 week since I last saw you dear. When can we meet again? I'm starting to get more and more bored every single minute without you. I can't live like this. 5 more days baby. Don't let it happen again on our day.
I getting tired of blogging. I have to post something, in order to make earthlings view this blog. I have to make more readers. But how? I'm trying my best to continue on my little story, but I've been so tired lately. Even typing takes alot of energy tau. But I promise I'll finish my story as soon as possible.
15/10/08 sucked my day. I got back my papers but not all. I heard I passed english, so I need to pass 2 more. I even heard I passed malay, 1 more subject! I failed POA. I got 12/100 for it. Great huh?
I did my best for Social Studies but confirm I'll fail cause I heard nobody passed that subject. I need 1 more subject to promote! How??
After school, I've planned to meet baby. I was so anxious to meet her, give her my warmest hug ever. But shit happens. Her mom (or so-called 'my mother-in-law'), told her to go back home fast. Fuck sia. When? When? When?!
baby! i want that handphone strap!
I getting tired of blogging. I have to post something, in order to make earthlings view this blog. I have to make more readers. But how? I'm trying my best to continue on my little story, but I've been so tired lately. Even typing takes alot of energy tau. But I promise I'll finish my story as soon as possible.
15/10/08 sucked my day. I got back my papers but not all. I heard I passed english, so I need to pass 2 more. I even heard I passed malay, 1 more subject! I failed POA. I got 12/100 for it. Great huh?
I did my best for Social Studies but confirm I'll fail cause I heard nobody passed that subject. I need 1 more subject to promote! How??
After school, I've planned to meet baby. I was so anxious to meet her, give her my warmest hug ever. But shit happens. Her mom (or so-called 'my mother-in-law'), told her to go back home fast. Fuck sia. When? When? When?!
baby! i want that handphone strap!
Friday, October 10, 2008
I Miss You So Much
Exams are over. Its time to play! I screwed up lots of subjects. POA is one of them. I can't really study much cause I was having fever back then. Even now, but my temperature isn't that high though. I took 6 pills yesterday; 2 paracetemol, 2 febs and 2 panadol. Now I'm having stomachache and have been shitting for the past few minutes.
I've been writing a short story. Something that I've always been wanting to do. Its still writen halfway. I'll publish it as soon as possible.
Guess what? I can't msg or call anybody. Bill not yet paid. Owe starhub more than $400. I don't know how to survive without being connected with my love who is at the other end of Singapore.
I miss my baby so much. ):
I've been writing a short story. Something that I've always been wanting to do. Its still writen halfway. I'll publish it as soon as possible.
Guess what? I can't msg or call anybody. Bill not yet paid. Owe starhub more than $400. I don't know how to survive without being connected with my love who is at the other end of Singapore.
I miss my baby so much. ):
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
Attention Earthlings!
This blog will be dead in a few days. I'm quite busy lately. Fucking FYE! Still got 2 more days to suffer. I'll be back with something new for all to read, something that I've been wanting to do. So be back after the exams end.
Sorry for the inconvience cause!
Sorry for the inconvience cause!
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Selamat Hari Raya!
SELAMAT HARI RAYA! MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN!
To those who I had argued, fight and talk back behind your back, you know who you are. Without apoplogy, things will get more fucked up. Without friends life would be boring. Stop the arguements, move on.
Firstly, I want to thank those peeps who wished me Happy Birthday. And thanks to those people who didn't bashed me sampai rabak2 ah. Thank god! Thanks to mom for keeping me for 16 years. On 2nd October 2008, I've been getting lots of text msges from almost everyone till my phone was lagging. It lagged for like 30 minutes ah. Musibot, susah siol nak reply. All I can remember who wished me first was my cousins, my sweet little baby, Zhao Liang, Ahmad and Diana. I was expecting her to text me cause I thought she was still mad at me.
I've got to go now. Tmr I'll be posting more. Bye!
To those who I had argued, fight and talk back behind your back, you know who you are. Without apoplogy, things will get more fucked up. Without friends life would be boring. Stop the arguements, move on.
Firstly, I want to thank those peeps who wished me Happy Birthday. And thanks to those people who didn't bashed me sampai rabak2 ah. Thank god! Thanks to mom for keeping me for 16 years. On 2nd October 2008, I've been getting lots of text msges from almost everyone till my phone was lagging. It lagged for like 30 minutes ah. Musibot, susah siol nak reply. All I can remember who wished me first was my cousins, my sweet little baby, Zhao Liang, Ahmad and Diana. I was expecting her to text me cause I thought she was still mad at me.
I've got to go now. Tmr I'll be posting more. Bye!
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