Video That Can Change Your World.

Thanks to Aidah, thankyouthankyou! I'm hearing 'KepadaNya (feat. Hady Mirza) - Taufik Batisah' from his new album, Suria Hatiku. I don't know where she got that song from but I don't give a damn. That song keeps playing over and over and over again even when I've closed my eyes.

There was this line that Taufik said, 'Wahai manusia sedarlah dirimu, hidup di dunia hanya sementara.' My mind was like, wow. With just one sentence, it made me reflect all those things that I've done in the past, even the bad things. Where will I go from here? That's the question. I know I'm excited over the new year, a new change but I'm scared. I'm scared if I would fall more deeper in and never to crawl back up to life. That's what I most feared of.

When my eyes were shut tightly, the song were still playing in my head. It's telling me something, to change my life, be good in life, think of the bad things I'll cause in near future. When my eyes were shut and the the song playing in my head, I can picture a video. The video was really a life-changing experience. It goes like this.
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Hakim lost his dad since he was a kid. His dad left his family in misery and never to return. Hakim had no choice but to stay with his mom in a one-room rented flat. Hakim fell for the wrong kind of friend when he entered secondary school. He bacame rude to his mom. He tries to show his true colours but due to his love for his mom, he dares not to.

One day, while his mom was watching the news. She saw Hakim on tv. It's not because of the good deed Hakim has done but he did something bad. He was caught for drug trafficking and was sentence to 5 years.

While Hakim was behind bars, regretting of what he had done, his mom fell sick. Crying for him all night, waiting for him to knock on the door. But waiting was finally over. She let out her last breath while praying to god for her son's safety. Noboby nor even Hakim's relative told him about his mom's death.

Hakim was release as early as it was stated due to his good behaviour behind the thick, dark and small walls. He wanted to suprise his mom and he soon took a taxi home. Upon reaching his flat, he saw many slippers and shoes outside his doorstep. He entered and he saw almost everyone with their shocked faces. He saw his uncle and asked where's his mom. All his uncle did was handing him a glass of water and asked him to sit down. Hakim refused and kept asking about his mom. The glass of water that he was holding slipped from his hands and broke into pieces. He fell flat to his knees. He didn't felt the pain in his knees but his heart was the one feeling it. He finally regret do what he did. He never wanted to leave his mom alone, crying for his mistakes.

He stared down to his mom's grave. Tears rolled down his cheeks as if those tears could bring her back to life. Like once his mom prayed for Hakim's safety, Hakim prayed to god for her safety in afterlife and her peace.
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I'm finally done! I want it to be recorded! I want a video of it! With 'KepadaNya (feat. Hady Mirza) - Taufik Batisah' as the soundtrack. But how? I have to send this to my uncle who had done 'Take On Me - A1' video and Taufik's 'I Dream' rejected video. But I only meet him like once in every year which is on Hari Raya. I want this video recorded and make everyone realise that you don't have much time in this world. But its not too late to change yourself.

Wahai manusia, sedarlah dirimu
Hidup di dunia hanya sementara
Dekatkan diri padaNya

I Yearn For Your Return.

What had happen to us? Why do we have to fight? Why do you have to leave? Why does everyone have to leave? Is it something that has to do with me? Or is my dance steps wrong?

Yesyesyes, finally! I'm over her! I woke up and I never have to go through what I had been going through lately. Tears didn't rolled down anymore, not thinking of you anymore cause I'm thinking of .... dancing? I realise that all is just a waste of time. Loving you while you're in love with someone else, crying every night and day while you're having a happy life outside.

I've been staying in this dark room of mine. Door and windows are closed. Not even a fresh air gets to enter this room. I could even make this room flooded if I cry every night and day... NOT! Which kind of freak can make a room flooded by their own tears? Life is not a cartoon world. Now its time for a change. 2009 is coming in 25 hours more. And I'm sure I'll be changing. Good or bad, its up to God. If good, I'll make sure I'll make everyone proud. If bad, then I'll chop off everone's head when they pissed me off.

Tomorrow's the last day of 2008. And nobody's free to go out with me? What the fish! I want to cuci mata people! I guess I have to watch the countdown on tv. Best jugak! There's a show, Love is Cinta, and I can't missed it. I want to watch it over and over and over again. There's more show on tv but I can't remember. Channel 5 is getting more and more entertaining, yknow. Air Force One coming, Underworld coming. What else? I heard One Tree Hill's coming back? Can't wait for 2009!

Leaving 2008 is kind of a pain in the ass, yknow. 2008 suddenly changed my whole life. Seriously, it did changed my life. For one moment, I was this nerd kid who had his baggy school pants, his armani hairstyle, his school socks was as high as a soccer socks (that's when I was in primary school!), gets bullied by almost all of his friends. But now, what had happen to me? Everything changed. But 2008 is when I felt different, as if I was more matured. 2008 is when I've changed my looks, my attitude and what more? If only I could rewind time back to October 2008, I would. I'll miss 2008.

i wanna dance!

A Lesson For The Young And Old.

Ever had a dream of wanting someone that you wanted to live with till you grow old? Ever had this feeling that you'll gonna be loved by someone special till forever? I do. I always have high hopes when I have someone in my arms. Hopes that can be too high and when it is smashed to the ground, the heart too, will be smashed and broken into small pieces. I don't understand why must everyone leave. Is it because of me or the love we shared were no longer there? But we did promised together that we will never leave each other, didn't we? Too love each other to the very best, too care for each other. That was all I asked for from love. But it seems so hard. It seems so damn hard that you can't take it and you have to leave. Leaving me in misery.

Its always been the same thing I'm going through in my life. When someone's loving me truely, madly, deeply, I'll take advantage of it. I asked for more. I always have to fall for another when I've got a good one by myside. Its just that I'm too easy to fall in love with just some sweet sentence.

I'm sitting here, staring at your dp every single night. Why has everything changed? What was lacking in me? I left someone for you. Everything I do never seems enough for you. That money I got to get you that ring was not from me, it was from grandma. She told me to keep it for my lunch but instead I bought it for you. But what happen? You lost it and you said you didn't cared. I'm not mad at you but I still love you. I want you back.

I went out with Nadia, Nadd, Faiz, ZhaoLiang and Haiqal. I don't know why when the boys were searching for chicks, I wasn't excited at all. I don't feel like finding a new one. Cause I know when I've found someone, that someone will sooner or later will leave me. And they were walking around the SkyPark, I was thinking of her. That was why I became quite. I'm confuse, damn it.

With this life of mine that I'm leading, I could teach the young and old of how unkindness of love can get. Never to fall in love with someone else when you've got one great girlf/boyf. If you leave your girlf/boyf for another one, its not going to last long. Trust me, karma do works. She believes that karma's gonna hit me one day, and it did.

25th; the day that it first started.

Now I finally understand why, why I was so damn sad, pissed off. Its 25th today. I didn't even notice the date till she texted me saying, 'Happy 1st month tak menjadi'. 25th November 2008; her birthday, our date. The day when I proposed and she said yes. The day that made me nervous as ever. The day that didn't go out as plan but still I made it happen. It all happen on that day. It just made me as happy as ever. 25th; forever in my heart.

Me and Butterfly are just gonna be friends. Guess what? She's dating some online guy name Aaron. She loves that guy. As soon as she said sorry, I knew something's wrong. Something bad's going to happen. And I was right. So it seems like I... am going to concentrate on my studies. 5 years and still will be counting.

Cb, I sound like a despo sia. Nak pegi, pegi ah. I'm not gonna say, I'll still love you. You're leaving me and why should I wait for you while you're enjoying your freaking life outside? I'm done with the 5 years. Penat aku count. Mcm budak bodoh sial. Peh puki ah!

I Can't Do It, I Just Can't.

Eventhough I've got Butterfly right back in my arms. I just can't do it. I can't fall in love. I just can't be in love. I'm too confuse right now. My mind is still thinking of her, my heart is still loving her. You should know who's her.

I just found out how my life is. Sometimes up, sometimes down. Like what Nadd says, I can even write a story about my life. It will be a great story. Very interesting cause it will include family problems, cheated by the same girl twice, loving two girls at the same time, breaking someone's heart, heartbroken by someone. Interesting right? Oh well, I'm too lazy to write about it. But I'm writing about something else. Yes Heamen, I'll complete it as soon as I can. Ok?

I'm too lazy to blog about today. I did met Butterfly. Not meeting her tomorrow, Friday and Saturday. Bye. I'll love her like I had never loved someone before.

Your Love Is All I Need.

I met Butterfly today/yesterday. I was waiting for Butterfly at around 9am at Clementi control station. For the love and for the work, I woke up early. The interview was at 2pm, but I just want to send her to work. I saw Butterfly and her mom. My mother-in-law to be? Still long way to go lah. I didn't recognise her cause she didn't wear the scarf that she always wears when I met her.

Went to Clementi's Mcd for breakfast. She wants to treat me but I just took the $2 meal. Not good to spend on other's money. Took 285 to Pandan Loop. The workplace was (no comment). Sent them and went to grandma's house to sleep.

Woke up at 1.35pm. I decide to cancel out the interview cause I don't think its the right time for me to work. I've to soccer training to attend every Monday and Friday without fail. I'm doing whatever it takes for GESS B'Division soccer boys to get through the semi-finals. I know its a big step, a big dream but I have faith with the boys. As a vice-captain, I must have faith. What's the captain doing? Where are you? Anyways, onward GESSians!

I went to Haqiz house to get my iPod cable and update on my music list. Finally, my iPod is working again. Glad to have it back to live. Then went back to grandma's house to wait for the time to pick up Butterfly from work.

Reached there around 5.30+pm. Waited, waited and waited. Finally saw her glum, tired face out of the building. She was shocked to see me, eventhough I've told her that I'm picking her up. From that glum, tired face I saw, it turns to a red, happy face. She can't stop laughing when she sees me, that's what she says. Crazy people. Lepak at her place till night? I don't know what time was that. But I knew I spent plenty time with her. And we can't stop laughing and smiling till tears came out. Tears of joy eh sayangku, bukan bende lain tau.

Sending Butterfly to work again tmr. Meeting at her house! (:

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Kau bagaikan udara
Yang membantu aku untuk terus hidup di atas dunia
Tanpamu ku lemah
Pasti aku tak perdaya
Kerna kau mahakarya cinta

Those Three Words Still Can't Come Out.

8 years of knowing you, 5 years of admiring you.

Two simply great, wonderful days. Yesterday and today. 21st and 22nd of december 2008. I finally got to see my old friend, my old crush. Without this friend of mine, Hajar, I don't know where to find her. For 8 years of knowing each other and 5 years of admiring her, I finally made my first move. For that 5 years of admiring her or loving her, I had never spoke those three words that I could easily said it to anyone.

We had lost contact for almost 2 years. But still that name of hers were still fresh in my heart. We had gone through lots of shits. Family problems, love problems and much more. To me, all those stupid problems would be gone when she's around me. Her presence would conquer all of it, step it, as if they had never happen. Maybe I couldn't find the right one to be my soulmate cause you were the one? Maybe all of the relationships I had were never to last long cause we were suppose to be together and last till forever?

Almost 2 years we lost contact, she really changed. From the bad girl to good girl. Lets say, Bad girl gone good. Her english was power! There's this slang in it, as if she's from the States. She never had lots of piercings anymore. The rest didn't change. Still love it this way. Her looks doesn't matter but her heart does.

Her name is 'Butterfly'. I gave her name randomly cause I don't want anybody to know. But two from the outside world has seen her, Heamenjit Singh and Jessie Lam. Goddamn it you two. Why Jurong Point? Watch at other places lah, alamak. All I know Heamen's gonna start his crap when he came online.

I thank you, Hajar, for bringing her back to me. Bringing her back to my life. Sincerely I said thank you.

Today/yesterday, 22nd of December. I was suppose to go for an interview that Butterfly told me about. Her mom wants people to work. Butterfly wants me to work with her so I took it. Was suppose to be there around 2pm. But I forgot about the soccer match between GESS and OSS. So I had to cancel the interview.

We won. Score? I don't know. All I know, we scored alot. And for the first time, I didn't score during the match. Mr Lim said I was the Man-Of-The-Match cause I worked really hard. Played Centre Midfield for the first time and I didn't really felt much tired. Stamina was good. I guess its because I'm cutting down on my ciggs? Happy? Happy ah! Man-Of-The-Match yknow! How good can I get?

After the match, I checked my phone. 3 missed calls from Butterfly. So I called back. She said she wants to go out, she invited me but I didn't picked up the phone. She said she's meeting Hajar at Fontier Library, so I followed. Hajar was mad cause we were late. Sorry babe! My fault. Hajar went back home, me and Butterfly went Jurong Point to eat. I only got $2+ and I thought of eating at Banquet but it was full of people. So we went to Mcd. Halfway while we were eating, guess who I saw? Heamen and Jessie. My mouth dropped, the Milo that I was holding almost slipped through my hands. I didn't expect anyone that I knew to be here, at Jurong. I guess Singapore's too small.

Sent Butterfly to her house which is located at Commonwealth. I was from Tiong to Jurong, then Jurong to Commonwealth. I was tired but she took it. I didn't felt pain or tired when she's around me. No joke. Inside the lift, I gave her a goodnight kiss. For the first time in 8 years, I gave her that kiss. Never I had the intention of doing it but it just happen. She went quite. As the door closed, she looked at me and said, 'I felt like not going home'. Maybe she thinking of staying with me tonight but I can't. With family problems I'm facing, it's not a good time to bring her home. One day, she will.

Should the love in me for her grows or should it just stay this way. Nadia! I need help!

Can I be in 2020?

I got to know about them. I've got ways. It was all silence when I read it. Blaming myself for what had happen made me feel better. I really did a stupid mistake. Or maybe not? But I know she's the best there is but I left her. Why? Because I fall with some girl who can't stop telling me sweet words and I fall for that. Everything has changed since I did that stupid mistake.

I wished I could fastforward time. I want to see who's riding on my bike behind me, who's holding my hands, who's sleeping on my bed. I just can't wait for the future. Start a new life with the one I love.

Its 1.30am right now. I can't sleep. I'm missing Fatima suddenly. I don't know if she does. Everyone's asking me to move on, forget about Tyqa. I can move on but can't forget about her. So I did my thing, I've move on. But I'm scared. Scared that I'll get hurt once again.

Currently chatting with Nadia online. Told her I was listening to Misteri Jam 12. Then she tried listening it online. She was so excited because of it. But she got to listen to it 3mins later then me. Then there's this song KC edited from 'Ini Satu Kisah - Aliff Aziz' to 'Ini Kisah MJ12'. Kekek giler oi! I like the part where the cik pon started singing. Hahaha, craps.

I'm off now. To bed, duhh. Nights everyone!

I Want iPod Nano!

I want that shit right there! I want pink! No, I want red! No, I want black! I think pink is hot. No, red is much hotter. I want it! I was shopping online and I looked at the price. $125? True or not true, that thing is in my wish list.

Its been just few days I knew Fatima Chaudhry binte Chaudhry Tarik Mehmod (finally, I got her name right! donut baby! just one, please!) and my tagboard is so damn lively. We're just friends lah people. She's attached and I'm not. So even if I'm not owned by anybody in this world, I can't just steal someone's love. Very bad, yknow. If there's more to us, then that's good. But I'm telling you, we are friends.

I owe Siti Nadia binte Amran a paragraph about her. So here goes.

You're the bestest-friend I ever had. You know when I said that, I truely mean it. Not like other people saying that they're someone's bestfriend but end up with some other friends. You're the first person in my head. According to order; you, my girlf/love/chick (if I have one), my friends, my cousins. You'll always be the first one even if I have a some pretty lady as my girlf.

Still remembered the day before I went off to Batam for CIP trip? That day when you called me and started to cry on the phone because of what your family did. Haha, I didn't expect you to call me first sia. That time you had to memorise my number cause you didn't had hp that time.

Still remembered that letter? The one you wanted to read but I threw it away? Yes, that was for you. I can't remember what I wrote. But I know there's 3 words in it. You know, I know. Luckily, I've threw it away. I don't know what would happen to us if you had read it. Paisey worr. I was scared you'll ignore me when you read it. That's why I threw it away.

And I thank you for still being my friend when I did something bad. Something that really made you furious about me. Yes, I realised that I did a mistake, a big mistake. Leaving her for some girl. I know she's the best girlf I've ever had. I guess I was stupid. I was stupid but not now.

Everything has changed, yknow. But my love for you as a friend, will never change. It will never be more or less. It will still be the same. I love you, bestest-friend. In my heart, you lay.

Single Life Is Interesting

I went for soccer training today but I didn't train. I just came just to watch and manage them. I gave a stupid reason for not training cause my boots was still wet due to last minute washing. I felt like managing the team than playing for the team. GESS soccer team sucks and needs someone good to manage them. So I thought of steping up to it but Izham didn't want me too. He needs a striker like me. Hah! GESS very own Fernando Torres.

I went with Izham to Izdi's house. They're going out to town with this cute girl named, Fatimah Chaodri binte Chaodri Tarik Mehmod. Imah, betul tak name? Kalau betul, nak donut! Haha. Met Fatimah at Clementi MRT station. She's super cute! (tak mau kembang eh, please.) As we walked to the busstop, I was at the back with Izham. I can't stop smiling sia. I could even tell that my face was really red at that time. We boared the bus to town. At first, Izham sat with me while Izdi and Fatimah sat together. Suddenly they changed place. Fatimah and Izham switched places. Then I was like shock for awhile, I didn't know what to do. I wasn't ready to talk at that time. So I just kept quite, took out my earpiece and kept it. Sign of respect! Then she started a conversation first. Friendly kid. After awhile she wanted to listen to my hp, so I gave her the earpiece and we listened all the way to Orchard. It seems like she loves the song 'Kasih Mengapa - Rauzan feat Urban Senstation'.

*skipped the part at orchard

We decided to go to Raffles City. So we waited at the busstop. Due to Izham's lack of cash to take public transport, Fatimah had to use her cash to buy food and 55cents from the balance would be given to him. In the bus, she sat next to me again. Same song! Kiwek, boleh jelak sia.

*skipped the part. on the way back to clementi

She sat next to me again. Same song! Now that song reminds me of her. That song is stuck in my head. Took pics in the bus. Kecoh sia. Then Nadia called, asked me where was I. Told her that I was at Clementi and asked her along. I fetched her from Clementi MRT station. Introduce to her Izdi and Fatimah. Of course she knew Izham, same school. (duhh!)

Lepak-ed at Clementi till around 8.30pm. Kecoh like siao! Izdi and Fatimah keeps going to the other end to talk private stuff. Real private stuff. I just can't stop throwing tissue papers at Fatimah, and Izham can't stop looking and smiling at me. I know I'm hot stuff but I'm not into boys k. Everybody left around 8.30pm. Fatimah, Izdi and Izham went home. Me and Nadia went to Jurong East Popular to buy her school books. We walked around while waiting to collect her book. She treated me chocolate waffle! Thank you adik!

That was it for today. I had a great time! Meeting someone new and it really makes my day. And I'm trying my very best to help her. She was suppose to be treated nicer and I'm here to save her. (haha, macam paham siol aku.)

Here's the pics!

What's The Problem With Love?

'In life, you got to have love. For love, you will live happily ever after.'

I don't understand girls. Seriously, when I gave all I had to someone. Shit always happens. Its been 2 times it happen to me in this teenage love life. There's this one girl who had poured all of her trust and love to me but I took advantage of it. Like how my ex did it to me.

The feeling of taking advantage of it is great, fun but deep down in your heart, you know you've lost someone who you can last very long with and you never know how long it could be. And with that love, you'll be happy, happy for life.

To you, I seemed like a fool. But I'm not. I'm not stupid to fall in that trap. The trap that could make me cry in bed for days and nights. Crying as if I am losing a piece of my body.

Pictures doesn't not mean a thing. That pictures I'd uploaded in friendster, facebook, myspace and blogger doesn't mean a thing. My friends and even families said me and Tyqa looked cute together. But does cute means we were suppose to be together? The answer is no.

I guess now its not the right time for us. We're not meant to be together right now but in future, I hope we are. I will still want you to be part of my life. I have to move on now. But remember this, eventhough I'm with someone that doesn't mean I don't love and I don't care about you. You will always be in my heart, forever and ever.

Yes, I finally agreed to what people say. Teenage love is just a test for us. To test if we can make it when we're married and have kids. And I failed.

Boredness Is Fun!

Guess what I'm doing? Nothing! Simply nothing! I'm online right now, but who's chatting with me? Nobody! What's the point of being online when nobody wants to chat? What's the point of you being online when you're busy? One busy with playing poker with friends, one playing online games, one busy eating and much more. God, you're so dumb. Or is it just an excuse for not wanting to chat with me? Brains people! Use your goddamn brains! Just have to guts to say, 'Sorry, you're irritating. Leave me alone.' Why can't you say that?

I've been fussy lately. In case if you didn't notice, I've change. So if you hate me, I don't mind at all. Cause I've been so kind to you and you don't give a damn about it. So what's the point of being the old Danial?

I've been sleeping the whole day. Yes, the whole day. No text message at all! Great! Guess I missed those times when I'm with my ex. Text messages not from my ex but from her. Every minute, everyday. Guess I missed those times. Everything has changed.

I might not be online tomorrow or for the rest of the days. I've got lots homework to do. Maybe I'll be sleeping at grandmother's house where there's no internet and little phone reception. How's that? So everybody will have a hard time trying to contact me. But the question is, who's gonna contact me? Even if I'm dead in this world, nobody would even miss me.

Memories Of Us In My Head Forever

Most of our life is is a series of images. They pass us by like towns on a highway. But sometimes a moment stuns us as it happens. And we know that this instant is more than fleeting image. We know that this moment, every part of it, will live on forever. From the bottom of my heart, I love you, Nur Atika binte Marjuki.

I Miss Her

I'm so sorry if I took a long time to update this blog of mine. I don't feel well this past few days. I've been missing Siti Nadia binte Amran sooo much. The time I had problems at home, her name was the first I called. I msged her eventhough she's at Malaysia cause I've promised her so. I hope she gets my msg. Anyways, I missed her now!

I had fun yesterday! I went out with Rudi in the morning. Suppose to work for this Standard Chartered thing but we didn't. We just sit one side, doing nothing. And we didn't get our pay cause we left early. CB, WASTE TIME SIA!

Met Faris, Iqbal and Marlyna behind Funan Mall. We jammed with this few people. Faris, the drummer and me, the guitarist. Our plan didn't go out well. We suppose to have more people, at least 20? But only 5 came. Where's the old Young Crew? All seperated because of gangs, other clan or works. I miss those times we had together during National Day. All gathered together doing stupid stuffs. But now its gone. Everything's changing.

I skipped the part when we were at Esplanade with the rest.

I went back home with Faris, Luqman, Iqbal and Marlyna. I dropped at Clementi to take a bus, a longer ride home. As I entered the bus, I saw chicks! Hah! I asked one of the girls number before alighting, and shockingly, I did get! But I didn't gave my number to them cause I said that my phone is repairing. Till now I didn't msg that girl cause I just want to know if I'm cool to get one. Sorry babe!

Wahyudi called me when I alighted the bus. He said that we're having soccer match at 1am. Cool huh? 1am? But the place is like Cage, lights on and stuff. $60/hr. Just behind my house. So anyone wants to book and lazy to go there, tell me! We played for 2 hours and my leg came off its place again. Always my right knee. I wanted to kick the ball and the leg, below knee came off and dislocated itself. And I had trouble running.

Around 4am we went off. Everyone had their vehicle, even me! Sparks, Super 4, Wave and much more. But me, special! BMX babe! They went off to Pioneer Mall. So I had trouble cycling cause of my leg. Took lots of shortcut, and I arrived just as they were to park their bikes. See how fast I can get? Eat and went back at 6am. Thanks Yazid for the treat!

For your information, I just woke up at 11pm. I slept at around 7am due to One Tree Hill. I kept watching and watching till I end up finishing the whole season.

To Tyqabby, my one and only girlf. I may not be the same person like last time. But I promise you that I will still love you. You're the air I breathe, you're the strength I need. If now is not the time, I will wait. I'll wait till you're ready. I love you soo much! Nothing else matters but your love is all I wanted.

Sorry, I Was Wrong.

Things happen sooo much lately. I got myself so damn stressed up. I got a fight with bby. I'm too lazy to blog about everything. Since then I think everything's changing. Its not the same as it used to be. I don't know what's gonna happen. But I'll promise I'm gonna be strong, I'm prepared for the worst.

Nadia is going off to Malaysia tmr. I'll miss her real bad. I hope she'll come back in one piece.

Tyqa's Quiz!

Bby, you fool! I love you!

1. The person who tagged you is ?
- My baby, Nur Atika binte Marjuki!

2. Your relationship with her ?
- My one and only girl till death.

3. Your 5 impression of her ?
- Lovely, hot, kind, cute giler! And short?

4. The most memorable thing she has done for you ?
- Sending me super long msges and telling me to listen to love songs.

5. The most memorable thing she had said to you ?
- Too much of words to be written but I'll write one; Tak akan pernah ada cinta yang lain di hati. Hari ini, esok dan selamanya. Sayang kamu!

6. If she become your lover, you will ?
- She is mine. -.-

7. If she becomes your lover, things she has to improve on will be?
- Your laziness! Nak makan pun malas.

8. If she becomes your enemy, you will ?
- Keep on crying. I know we won't be.

9. If she dies, you will ?
- Prepare for my funeral.

10. What is it you want to tell she now ?
- No matter whatever happens, I will still love you. I will never find another to replace you in this heart of mine.
11. Your overall impression of she ?
- The best that's happen to me! Super rajin to study, I lioke!

Skipped Question 12 - 16. (Ape ni skipskip?)

17. My Top 10 Sugarbeats.

01. Nur Atika binte Marjuki!
02. Siti Nadia Binte Amran.
03. ZhaoLiang
04. Faris
05. Izham
06. Zulhaqem
07. Wahyudi
08. Iqbal
09. Aidah
10. Kaseh

18. Who is no.6 having a relationship with? (Zulhaqem)
- He's single, I think so?

19. Is no.9 a male or a female? (Kaseh)
-Famale.

20. If no 7. and 10 are together, will it be a good thing? (Wahyu & Kaseh)
- Hahahaha! Cool!

21. What is no.2 studying all about? (Nadia)
- Studying? Currently studying how to love.

22. When was the last time you chatted with no.3? (ZhaoLiang)
- Weeks away?

23. What kind of music band does no.8 likes? (Iqbal)
- Rock? Dah lame tak jumpe nye psl.

24. Does no.1 have any siblings? (Tyqa)
- Yes, 2 brothers! Kan, kan? Abang ipar pe!

25.Will you woo no.3? (ZhaoLiang)
- Hell no!! No way!

26. How about 7? (Wahyudi)
- Abangku yang handsome! Hahaha! I want your Sparks! But not you! Hahaha!

27. Is no.4 single? (Faris)
- Yup! Kesian die, pendek sangat. Hahaha!

28. What is the surname of no.5? (Izham)
- erm..blank

29. What is the hobby of no.10? (Kaseh)
- Idk! Why should I ask?

30. Does no.5 & 9 get along? (Izham & Aidah)
- They don't know each other.

31. Where is no.2 studying at? (Nadia)
- Gan Eng Seng Secondary School.

32. Talk about something for no.1? (Tyqa!)
- You're my one and only perempuan yang ku amat sayang sangat!

33. Have you tried developing feelings with no.8 ? (Iqbal)
- My abang? Sounds so...

34. Where does no.9 live in? (Aidah)
- Flat? Condo? Terrace? Banglow? Longkang? Could be one of those.

35. What colour does no.4 likes? (Faris)
- One of the colours from the rainbow.

36. Are no.1 and 5 bestfriends? (Tyqa & Izham)
- They don't know each other.

37. Does no.1 have any pets? (Tyqa)
- Nope.

38. Is no. 7 the sexiest person in the world? (Wahyu)
- If I were a girl, I'll say yes. But I'm a guy, so, no answer for that.

39.What is no.10 doing now? (Kaseh)
- Should be otp with the SBLs, leaving me alone doing this bloody quiz. ):

Finally I'm done!

First Quiz!

Faris, you told me to do this. So here it goes.

1. Who is the person who tagged you?
- Mohammad Faris bin Samri (hey people! His dad's name!)

2. Relationship between you and him?
- Used to be classmates, platoonmates and still my very good, short friend. (:

3. Five impression of him?
- Friendly, sociable, kind, nice and short.

4. If he becomes your enemy , will you do?
- Do nothing but cry. He can't do anything to me lah, please.

5. What would you like to say to the person you like very much?
- Sorry if I did that, I'm attached!

6. Characteristic I like about myself?
- erm, hot?

7. Characteristic I hate about myself?
- Money. Its all about the money!

8. For the person you hate, you say?
- Hello? Bye!

9. What do people feel about you?
- Ask them, not me.

10. Your crush?
- Hilarie Burton!

11. Pass this to 10 ppl
1) Nur Atika binte Marjuki
2) Siti Nadia binte Amran
3) Balqis binte Razak
4) Kaseh
5) Aidah
6) Zhaoliang (is his blog offcially dead?)
7) Jessie
8) Mohammad Faris bin Samri
9) Sharifah
10) Farah

12. If 5 & 7 were tgt? (Aidah & Jessie)
- Firstly, they don't know each other and I don't think they're lesbians. -.-

13. What does 5 like? (Aidah)
- Boys, how do I know. (:

. What colour does number 9 like? (Sharifah)
- One of the colours from the rainbow.

15. Say something about number 8? (Faris)
- Firstly, thank you for treating me if you had. Secondly, you're the nicest friend I've ever met. Lastly, sorry if your birthday celebration with YC didn't happen as you planned.

16. Who is number 2?
-Siti Nadia binte Amran. How can you not know her? She's famous in friendster.

17. Talk about number 3? (Balqis)
- I'm sorry if I hurt you real bad. And I know karma with hit me. But I ready for it! Thanks for the advice anyways.

18. Who's number 10's best friend? (Farah)
- Melissa. That's all I know.

19. Who is the sexiest among the 10 people?
-With that thing she wears, its gonna be Nur Atika binte Marjuki!

20. What colour does 4 like? (Kaseh)
- Pink?

21. Is 4 single? (Kaseh)
- Nope, if I'm not wrong.

22. Your relationship with number 1? (Tyqa!)
- My wonderful girlfie! She's the best there is.

23. Are 5 & 6 bestfriends ? (Aidah & ZhaoLiang)
- Nope, but they're friends.

24. 9's surname? (Sharifah)
- Alkaff! Cool huh?

25. 7's nickname? (Jessie)
- Nope, not gonna say it.

26. Say something to 8. (Faris)
- Isn't it the same as the above?

27. Say something to help 9. (Sharifah)
- If your cat is sick, bring it to the doctor k? Haha.

28. Who does number 1 admire? (Tyqa!)
- She admires Hady Mirza but loves only me!

29. Where does number 1 lives? (Tyqa!)
- Chua Chu Kang! Can I say the block??

30. Does 10 of them know who you like?
- Yup!

31. Say something to 6 when you see him? (ZhaoLiang)
- Wassup!

32. 10's spouse? (Farah)
- She don't have one.


One down, one more to go!

What Are Friends For?

I asked almost everyone out but only one asked me to tag along. That is Nor Izham Bin Masdebari. Did I spelt it correctly? Anyways, he asked me to tag along with Izdi, Irfan and Hadi to Sentosa. Well, at first I didn't want to go cause I'm sick of Sentosa already but I had to go out, at least away from houseowners (you know what I mean). So, at last I made up my mind to go with them. Thanks Izham for the treat! You're a wonderful friend! (tak mau kembang eh!)

I arrived early as they plan, I'm always early. Bloody mofos. We didn't do anything much at Sentosa. Just swam, play soccer, swam, smoke. That's all we did. But I didn't swim that much, I was in the mood to. So I bath first. The toilet was super empty, no one wasn't inside lah.

After I went out of the toilet, chickies looked at me. Haha! Sorry ladies, I'm attached with the beauty. They looked, they laugh. I don't have jokes written in my face, do I? Stupid minahs.

After all the times spent at Sentosa, we went to Vivo to eat. Eat, eat, eat. The chicken rice uncle gave me one big bowl, which is for like 5 people to drink it up. One big bowl for just me to drink the soup. -.- Irfan took a candid pic of us eating but my face was turning away cause some chick called me with that kissing sound. Hehe. I know I'm hot stuff.

Then lepak at Clementi. We did some recordings cause we're bored. Izdi with the guitar and Izham, Hadi and me sang. We're like one gay band sia. At first we recorded the Mimpi Yang Sempurna - Peterpan song, then some asshole added in some words like what the Teck Kong boys said in their song. ABC eh korang? Aku Budak Clementi? Macam pah ah. Aku, HMJ, Hidup Mati Jurong. Anyways, pics I'll upload tmr.

I didn't msged bby that much. I'm scared she'll get sick of me sending her text msgs, so I didn't. I super miss her so effing much. No matter what happens, I'll never leave you. Till death brings us apart. Till hari kiamat lah!

Currently I'm super the busy. I had 2 quizes to do. One from Faris and one from bby. So, till then! Tmr meeting adikku yang tersayang!

I'm Sorry Dad.

I don't understand. What's the point of breaking up/divorce? Just because of a fight, it has to happen this way. Why can't it be settled by talking? Why do they fight? Why must they go? Why now? I just don't understand.

Me and my dad; eventhough our relationship doesn't seem so close, I still love him, I still treat him as my dad. I treated him bad since 2004. The year that I suffered most during my PSLE and it affected my studies. Now its happening again and next year is N'Levels. I want to my best for N'Levels, I want to go Poly or even better college. And I'm scared it will affect my studies.

I blog about this so that readers can show to their parents what I'm going through. I don't care if my cousins are reading this. Blogging is the only thing I can express my feelings.

You may think divorce is the best way. Well all I can say is, you're selfish motherfucking freaks living in the world that god create for us to love, not to hate each other and leave them. You only think of yourself. If you love your children, why do this? You think it won't affect them? Fucking yes, you can see your kids happy but they're crying inside. They'll miss the times they enjoy together with their family. I'm sure of it.

I'll miss dad. I'll miss the times we spent together as a family on Genting Highlands, our only vacation outside Singapore. I miss the times I had during my birthday. The last birthday gift I had from him was an organ/piano when I was primary 6. I understand he didn't gave me presents anymore cause he had credits to pay. I gave me a hug, which had been so long since I had from him. Tears can't stop rolling down my cheeks, even right now as I'm blogging. I just don't understand. Why must they tell me? Why? I had enough problems in my head and I don't need anymore.

Now these questions start appearing in my head. Who's going to pay for my school fees? Who's going to pay for my conssesion pass for traveling? Who's going to give me pocket money? Who's going to buy me school books?

I guess I had to find another work. Double work, double money.

I Know You Do Love Me

"If you love somebody, let them go, for if they return, they were always yours. And if they don't, they never were." - by I don't know who.

Well, this qoute. It kinds of make me think of the bright side. No matter how many times bby told me that she don't love me, I still know that she does love me. Act malu-malu kucing pulak. If you want leave me, I don't mind but I'm scared though.

Anyways, today keje relax sungguh. I did the oiling at first when I came for work. Oil banyak-banyak skali. I did pizza today but I never do the topping! Banyak worr. Aku dah pandai! The dough's very soft. I had to pat the dough softly not to cause and tear in it. I cut the pizza. First time, kecoh siol. Mat motor ketawe kan. Nasib baik pizza aku sendiri untuk makan. Spoil sak aku cut, at last makan mcm gitu je.

When there's nothing to do, kite lepak kat Somerset. Not that Somerset. There's this dough machine at the back of the kitchen called 'Somerset'. Merepek sak Wahyudi. At last tidur situ. Terbaring kat situ. Sejuk sak. Nana woke us up and said, 'Oi, sedap eh tidur? Korang pikir ni rumah korang pe?'. Manager pun gerek.

Belajar motor! Went down to carpark with Wahyudi to smoke. Motor the lawa, putih lagi! Spark eh name die? Susah betul ah nak tau motor. Die punye modified lagi ah, horn die kuat nak mampos. Asked him lots of questions about bike. He paid instalment of $150/month for his bike. Murah sial. Aku nak! Terus boleh bawak chick aku jalan-jalan. Eh bby?

Anyways, tmr I'm working at 6pm. So I've got lots of time to pay back my sleep. At last! Ingatkan ade bola besok tapi takde. Waste time aku nak tanye manager je tau.

I miss you, Nur Atika binte Marjuki. Bile mau meet lagi? I can't meet you this week or next week. Abeh you can't go out sampai you leave Singapore on 18th December. Mcm mane mau jumpe sia? Maybe we meet after you balik k? I miss our late night calls. Aku jealous skrg. Semue orang ngah otp. Aku sorang je. Sedih siol. ): Ape nak buat? Dapat gaji je, top up! Tapi kene save some for bby's shoes.

Nights. Wanna sleep.
danialsayangtyqa™

Pizza Anyone?

First day of work dah fun giler. Mat motor gerek dok! I woke up as early as I can. Eyes were still heavy due to tiredness and just 3 hours of sleep. I left my house around 6.15am and I took my time to work cause I know I was too early. I skipped three 185 buses and still I arrived work place too early. Backdoor's locked and I just waited outside. Lame siol tunggu, from 7am - 8am. 1 hour of waiting. Quite worth it lah cause I won Intercontinential Championship. Tak perlu bilang siol.

First thing I did when I entered the kitchen, abang suruh tukar baju to uniform. Uniform lawa dok! Kalau nak tengok, turun Jurong East Swimming Complex k. How are you going to see me working when I'll be at the kitchen? If I'm on break pun, I'll be with mat motor kat carpark. So pandai2 carik aku eh?

Today I didn't get to learn how to make pizza. Shit you QA officers. Datang buat kecoh. Cannot here, cannot there. Command je korang eh. So tomorrow/today learning dough making, toppings tu semue tak yah. Complicated giler.

Anyways, I'm off to sleep. I'm still lacking of sleep.

danialsayangtyqa™; 25th

Happy Belated Birthday Tyqabby!

Happy birthday bby! I know now its 26th November but I hope its not too late to post it. I know my present for you is very cheap but my love for you very mahal tau. And I promise you that I'll buy something that will get you super happy. I know what you want. And I'll get it for you, I promise. You're the very first person that I truely, madly, deeply in love with. Ni semua tuhan dah plan. And I hope tuhan akan plan kite berdua happy untuk selama-lamanya. And I takot you akan tinggalkan I. Walau apapun, I akan sayang you. I akan tunggu untuk you eventhough you ngan kekasih lain. You're my everything, I love you so so so much Nur Atika binte Marjuki! 25/11; a date to remember.
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If you want to know what happen during Tyqa's birthday celebration, please kindly visit Tyqa's blog yourself. I am super tired to blog about it.

I'm Sorry

Seriously, I'm lost. No, I'm not. Yes, I am. I don't even know what fucking time and place to meet them in 12 hours time. I don't feel excited anymore. I don't feel the feeling I had in a weeks back. I don't have cash to go out. I'm simply broke. I did work for like 1 day but I have not get the payment yet. Its been like 1 week ago. Where's that fucking money?! What's the point of going out when you have no cash in your pockets, even no coins? Tell me! What? You expect me go around begging money? I'm not a beggar. I am seriously pissed off right now. I am super pissed off!!!! I'm pissed off cause my life is like this.

I see people around and I'll get jealous and sad. They have these smile in their faces. They got to eat different food each single day. Me, I eat the same thing over and over again. That's why I'm getting skinnier each day. I may look like a kid next door but I don't. You don't know the real Danial in the house. You don't know what I've been doing at home cause I didn't blog about it.

I woke up late again, at around 7pm. I opened the door and nobody's at home. Standard living. I'm better off living alone. Checked on the rice cooker. Fucking assholess. There's no rice, that means no food. There's no food around! I'm stuck at home, starving. I'm super pissed off right now. I'm off the limit already.

I guess that I'm not going tmr. If dad's not giving me money, then I rather stay at home, wait under bby's block or just wait outside the sentosa monorail gate. I don't want to use people's money. It's theirs, they work for it. I remember what mom used to say, 'Kaw miskin, so act miskin. Jangan nak act kaw anak orang kaye.'

Tired Because Of Fun

I'm currently not in the mood cause my iPod is giveing me trouble. Stupid shit. I felt like throwing away from the 10th storey. Wait, I can sell it. $150, anyone? I can sell it through ebay. Talking about ebay, I won the Haro Bike a week ago and I didn't even read the e-mail send by the ebay. I'm sure screwed up by the site.

Moving on. I went out with Nadia and Nadheera today. I woke up around 7.30am, which sooo freaking early cause I don't want to get myself late. I was suppose to meet Nadia at 11.30am so I watched tv, surf the net. Watched 'Whose Line Is It Anyway' on YouTube. Without YouTube, life would be boring, am I right? Look, right now bby's watching Corner With Love on YouTube.

I left my house around 11.20am, then I walked from my house to Boon Lay interchange cause Nadia said to meet at 11.50am so I take my own sweet time ah. When I reached Jurong East, I saw that pretty lady (next stop, Kembangan). Train-ed to Woodlands and walked around Causeway Point. Saw what we wanted to buy, tapi mahal sangat siol. Takpe lah, tunggu gaji aku. Nanti beli sebesar punye. We went to the arcade to just walk around but I found out that I had the card. I can play but I have to top up some money in. Played this game. Super annoying lah. Nadia fed up with that machine. Stupid money-sucker machine!

Train-ed to Chua Chu Kang to meet Nadheera. I keep telling Nadia to wear a skirt which really fits her. But she's so stuborn. Little kids doesn't know the taste of fashion, what to do? We sat and waited at McDonald's for that slow princess. Nadia felt bored for a moment and wanted to prank someone. So I gave Haqiz number, sorry babe! Prank maut siol, minahrep style. It took quite a long time for my to understand one word. I really hate those kind of broken english. Even if you're english isn't good, at least write like how to write during your exams.

eg. Aku tawq takot arh.

Dhendhen, eu leavee me alone.

Seriously, I can't stand all those msges. Its not that I hate minah lah but I just don't like the way they msg.

Anyways, we went to Vivo after Nadheera came. Such a long time since I ate that lemon chicken rice at Banquet. I even ate Nadheera's and Nadia's foods. Still hungry at that moment. We walk around to find something, but it's price was expensive and I don't think its that big. Then off to Bugis. Nadia wanted to buy a dress for 25th cause she was told to by her members. As soon as I see a dress, I told Nadia to buy this but she kept saying, 'Rimas'. Ape yang rimas sangat? Seriously Nadia, you look good in it. Anyways, we saw this dress which is nice but we went looking around to find nicer ones. Then Nadia wanted the previous one so we patah balik. Carik punye carik tak jumpe2, rupenye kedai tutup for awhile cause the shopowner nak makan. So we all went level 3 to wait. Camwhore!

I'm lazy to post what happen next. Read Nadia's blog if you want to. Die sexy tau korang! And jgn nak terpikat ngan die eh! Tu adik aku. Kaw nak die, give me you particulars. Hahaha. Merepek sak aku. Korang nak die, amek ah. Jgn bukan2 sudah eh.

Camwhore pictures. I know, my face. Hahaha.

Finally Work Came To Me

Yeepidie yey!
My mom woke me up around 11am. She said my uncle got a position for me at Pizza Hut. I felt grateful At last, I've got something to do rather than sleeping at home like a pig. I won't tell you where I would work cause I hate people spying on me while I'm working. Feels uncomfortable. But sooner or later you'll know cause the place is such a common place where people would visit.

Went for the interview and I got it. But there's somethings I need to do and bring. I have to photocopy both bank book and IC (both sides), buy black socks and shoes, go for this injection thingy but I went for it before and I forgot where I put the receipt. Gosh, I have to go for another one. I hate needles.

After the interview, I went to Haqiz house. Downloaded some songs to my iPod. I've got my iPod from 1/4 to 3/4 full of songs. Then went to Danish which is a few metres away from bby's house. I walked past her block when I went back home.
imy bby!

Tmr meeting Nadia! So long suckers!

This One's For You

'Cause if your love was all I had
In this life
Well that would be enough
Until the end of time
So rest your weary heart
And relax your mind
Cause I'm gonna love you girl
Until the end of time'

Until The End Of Time - Justin Timberlake
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I Love You, Nur Atika Binte Marjuki!

I Miss You People!

Its the second time I've woke up very late. The last time I woke up late was till the next morning. But today I woke up at 6.30pm. And fyi i'm still sleepy.

There's certain people that I miss. I miss Tyqabby. I miss Nadia. I miss Ain. I miss Zulhaqem. I miss Izham. I miss Shahril. I miss 3E'07. I miss Nad and the fun things we did during our late night calls last time. I miss Balqis. I miss Farz. I miss Zaki. I miss Hougang Mall. I miss Aisyah. I miss Botak. I miss Budak RC!

Those names not there, I'm sorry. These names are in my head once I woke up.
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I was chatting with Nadia, Aidah, Kaseh and Zara was completely lost. I don't know what the fish they were talking. Plan, plan, then talk crap non-stop. I was completely lost, then one by one was gone. To eat, I guess?

I'm meeting Nadia on Monday. So all plans have to be canceled. I'm not going to 4E's class chalet. There's something more important to do.

It Was Ruined.

Young Crew's chalet was a mess. Its not all the members from Young Crew, just the intake 05's. At first I thought of not going but suddenly shit happens at home and I just felt like running away. So I did met them down there.
I couldn't text or call anyone cause my ppd has no value so I had search for them up and down and at last I found them outside McDonald's. Luckily I found them down there, if not I'll be at the bbq pit alone. Everyone's faces were looking unhappy. Somethings fishy, but I just kept quiet. Maybe its because I didn't pay for it and they think I'm an extra down there, but I don't care. I can't eat the food, its fine. I just came cause I wanna spend my last day (hopefully not) with them. They went off playing arcade games. I just sat at one side watch at them playing, smiling, laughing. Face of happiness. I tried my best to show my happy face but I don't think I managed to.

I skipped to the bbq part. Me, Faris and Faiz when to the pit first while the rest were still spending money on a machine which can give entertainment which can only last to like 10 minutes? We met Izdi and his friend, Nadia. This Nadia tak lawa and tinggi. So I prefer MY Siti Nadia binte ____. We started the fire first before eating. Duh, who would want to eat raw? I didn't ate that much though, my head kept repeating "I didn't pay".

There was conflict in our group, a big one. A problem which was cause quite a long time ago. But to make sure there won't be a fight or anything, one of them was at the other end of East Coast. In the middle of the night bad shit happens. It happens so fast. Punches thrown. Luckily I didn't got one on my right eye, phew! I don't want to tell you people what happens. Only for me to know, for you to find out. It happens in the middle of the night, like about 3am? There's tents everywhere around us and they're shouting vulgars. Just imagine how noisy it was and still those people in the tent were still sleeping soundly. Baik eh? If Singapore got terrorist attack, still they'll be sleeping.

By sunrise, most of them were gone. But some stayed. We finally got to swim. I took a dive and that burning sensation I felt in my right eye but its the feeling is nice. When I looked into the mirror now, its gone! The swell's gone! I'm fine, but there's something I must not tell. I need to see the doctor as soon as possible.
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I've read bby's post. I can't even wait for 25th. For the first time I'm gonna do that. Nervous and excited. Hopefully there would be more people joining. Then more the merrier. Kalau boleh, nak bawak satu family turun sak. Nenek aku, makcik-makcik aku, family aku. semue skali ah. Hahaha.

I miss Nur Atika binte Marjuki very much. I want to give my sudden kiss again! Hahaha, main giler kepe? If I were given a chance, I would stay with you forever. Never let you go.

I would never find another lover sweeter than you, sweeter than you
For all my life, I pray for someone like you
And I thank god that I finally found you
For all my life, I pray for someone like you
And I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do love me too

I love you bby!
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I'm sure there would be haters out there checking me out again. And I know what's in their mind. "Sialah, budak ni. Nak step sweet". Confirm these words will come out. But there's no tagboard, so whatever anger you have, keep it ok? To tell you the truth, I sincerely love Tyqa very much. Say whatever you got to say, I don't care. My love for her won't break.

Scared Of Losing My Love

TYQA AKU PUNYE! SESIAPE BERANI RAMPAS, BERANI TANGGUNG AH!

Work Then Enjoy.

I had 1 hour of sleep early morning. Cause I'm scared I'll overslept and forgot about my work, which Farah introduced to me. The work is at Chevron's, somewhere near IMM Jurong. I got myself ready for work at about 6am. I was too eager to start working again. (money, money, money!) I reached there at about 7.05am. I thought I was late but it turns out I'm the one early. The work was kind of simple. Tape all the banners which looks like its gonna fall. Then I have to carry out the goodie bags out. It was freaking heavy, believe me. My back still aching due to this. There's some light snacks in the hall. The aroma of the food made my stomach felt cramped and it kept growling. We can only eat when the visitors left the place for converence at the ball room. When they left, I ate alot. 5 loa mai kai, 5 hotdog rolls, 5 muffins. Still then I was hungry but I didn't want to eat all of it. The visitors still are coming back for tea break.

I had a so called 'get-to-know-more-about-you' talk with Farah. I didn't know she ..... (tak perlu tau eh korang, secret!) After we finished our work, me and Farah went to IMM. Saw what I was looking for. But I didn't know if I want to buy it. We looked around and then we left. Ever you heard of a shuttle bus? Do we have to tap our ezlink cards to ride it? No right? This stupid, dumbass Farah said, "You dah tap ezlink card ke belum?". I don't know if she was joking or serious but she gave me that serious-looking face. Fool!

I met Nadia and bby at Jurong East. I miss Nadia soooo much! She did grow. Almost my height siol. I miss bby too! Nadia wanted to know what subjects she's taking next year so me and Tyqa followed. Skip the part until we met Rudi in school. Finally I got to see him. Rindu siol. 1 more I really miss soooo much, Nur' Ain binte Suhaimi. Mane kamu oi? Ku sedang mencarimu! Jiwang siol aku.

Went to cck. Lepak kat daerah some guy lived. Betul-betul bawah blok. Tak gentle betul ah budak ni. Tyqa was like showing off her tongue to me with that stupid face of hers. I quickly took her head and kiss her lips. Hahaha. Hyper betul aku ni, tak sangka.

When to IMM Jurong again but with Nadia after sending bby home. Windowshopping for awhile, then bought what I was looking for. I can't wait for that day, that time! Argh, I'm excited! Nadia, you will find someone much better some day. I'm sure of it.

Anyways, here's the pics we camwhored before going to cck.

Blogshopping

I've found a new website. For ladies who like to shop but lazy to get up. Two friends of mine made a blog for you people! I've put it in my links. So do check it up!

I'm Lacking Of Sleep

Look at that. My right eye's swelling. Few weeks back was the left eye, now its the right. What's wrong with my eyes? I didn't watch nude pics or videos. Don't say I did. 2 more days to Young Crew's bbq. 7 more days to 4E's chalet. And 8 more days to Tyqa's birthday celebration. How? I'm not going out with this swelling eyes. Nenek kerbau lah. Maybe I'm not going out till 25th.

I woke up around 5pm. Baik perr? I'm like a pig when it comes to holidays. I can even sleep the whole day and wake up the next day without even eating. I realise that Tyqa went out with her friends. Enjoy eh korang? I was so damn fucking bored lah. Nothing to do. Nobody's chatting online.

I'm currently laughing like a clown. I'm hearing 2 China men shouting. I can't understand a shit they're talking cause its not my language. They're shouting as if someone's gonna die. I can't find where the sounds come from. But the way they were shouting makes me laugh. Stupid foreigners. Go back to your country lah, asshole.

I have a confession to make. I have this bad habit of hating chinese people. Especially the old motherfuckers. I can't understand why they have to be so damn kiasu? I once was on the way back home on a bus which was freaking pack. I can't even move to the side, front or back. So I just stood there. Then came in an old auntie. She look to the back of the bus and tried to squeeze in. For the first time in my life I got squashed by an old auntie. She squeeze in and then stop, right at my back. So damn irritating. When the bus moved left or right, I didn't grab hold of the handle bars so I purposely swang my arms as if I'm lossing my balance. My elbow hit her head. I was laughing inside. Serve you right fucker. Then she was kind of mad but she didn't do anything. My stop was next and it was super hard to get out with that auntie behind me. I pressed the bell. I turn as hard as I can, pushed the auntie away. She fell infront where there's a couple sitting. She shout vulgar words. So I shouted back, "Hidup mati melayu!" I don't know why I said that but it felt great. I simply hate all old chinese, but for some chinese I'm ok with it.

i need chocolate!

I Miss You

I overnighted at cousin's house last night. We watch ghost stories and a horror movie. REC was the scariest, creative movie ever seen. A must watch movie. Then the rest watched 'Tropic Thunder' but I didn't. I was kind of sleepy. So I took a nap for awhile. I woke up around 3am. Everyone was dead sleeping. It was so damn fucking bored lah. So I just played PSP till 6am. Lay down till 8am then I went 'home-sweet-home' to sleep. I just couldn't sleep down there, idk why.

I walked past baby's block and I looked up. God, I miss her sooo freaking much. I miss our late night calls. I miss her voice. I miss her 'I love you too'. I miss Nur Atika binte Marjuki soo much! I wanna meet her again! But when? 25th? That's like 1 week more. I don't care lah. If I have to wait, then I'll wait. I love you bby!

Since I've reached home this morning, I've been asleep. I've been sleeping from like 9am - 8pm? I woke up and saw 1 miss call and 2 text msg. Both from Tyqabby. Pagi-pagi nak buat orang mengamok ngan msg tu. (You know what I mean!) I ate 3 packets of instant mee goreng and I'm still hungry. I waited for my parents to come back home cause my mom brought this laptop to cousin's house. Ate, watched tv, slept, played guitar, checked hp. That's all I did since I reached home. There's one thing I didn't do today. Smoke! Aren't I a good boy? Feels weird though. I need chocolate right now! I'm going down to buy it.

i need to complete my story right away!

New Skin, New Atmosphere

I've changed my skin. This one looks much better than the old one. It looks simple and neat. If you realised why there's no tagboard, I'll tell you why. I had this group of spammers/friends/haters/ex who hated me and spammed me. But its all settled but a new asshole came spamming. One of sachek family? That's what I heard. Why come to me? I'm not in sachok family, I'm a Young Crew. Always and forever be. So don't come to me and say all those stuff. If you're in a clan, don't make trouble. You're just a clan, not a gang, not a design. So I would like to advise this girl who tag/spam me, do not hurt any of my friends. You wouldn't like it.

I had NCC R.O.D. function this morning. It started at around 9am but I woke up at 9am. Baik per? I had rush. I didn't even had time to look at my hair. So I didn't know how bad-looking was I this morning. I came around 10.30am. It was freaking dark and boring. The only R.O.D. function that I like was the batch before mine do it. Super cool I tell you. It was like a mini restaurant. Red carpets, waiters. Super cool. Anyways, the lunch was superb. I love it. I hadn't had the perfect meal since yesterday. Fish, chicken. OMG, I wanna eat it again. After lunch, it was over. I was all around school. Part A & B was at the 2.4km track, playing 'tekan game'. The most cruel thing I've ever seen. You should know. Part C was marching at the arena. Then the NCO's time to do the last footdrill together. Stupid fucktards, keep on laughing like hell. Then it was birthday celebrations. Kids who's birthday just past were thrown at the pond. They came back with that fishy smell. I came to them and said, "Something's fishy in here." I know lame.

That's the highlight for today. I have to go to my aunt house right now. Nights people!

What'up, What's Happenin' Haters?

What's done is done. Hate me all you want. Spamming at my blog, that's so lame. Think before you start a fight. You're still young, your parents still care about you. Tell you something k. If ya'll still not happy, turun Jurong West. I'm all around Jurong West. Take care haters! So long! I'll miss ya!

I'll be away tmr. I'm going my friends class chalet. So I'll update the next 2 days k.

ilovetyqaveryverymuch!

My Life, Not Yours

God help! Why must this happen to me right now? When I was single and alone, why nobody came after me? When I'm almost with someone and really love someone, why many came after me? Many as in lots of them. Stress lah aku. Aku sayang Tyqa, aku nak Tyqa, aku rindu Tyqa. Aku nak setia pada satu can?

HEY COUSINS! FUCK YOUR PARENTS AH SIAL! NI HIDUP AKU, PAHAM! PUKI PUNYE SIAL! TAK YAH NAK COMPLAIN SANE SINI AH! KEPALA BUTO! AKU RESPECT KORANG, SEBAB TU AKU DIAM. SKRG KORANG DAH OVER LIMIT!! JGN SAMPAI TANGAN AKU GERAK AH!

I See Haters.

What'up haters? What's happenin? I see you checking on me again and again. I see you writing on your blog, saying 'I FUCKING HATE _ _ _ _ _ _!' Oh well, I don't give shit about you suckers. Hate me all you want, I'm still standing strong. Pain's a small thing, I won't feel it. Say whatever you have to say. No matter what, here I am, still I stand!

I've been busy in something. It has to be done before 18 December 2008. Something for you bby! So you won't get bored during your Malaysia Trip. Hope you'll enjoy your day there k. ily!

I don't know if I might be blogging everyday. But I'll try my best to keep this blog alive.
I got to go now. Bye haters! Bye bloghoppers! Bye bby! I love you all!

The Day That Never I Wanted

I'm sorry bby.
I know its not enough to say 'I'm sorry'.
We're better off this way.
Find other guy who can treat you better.
Hate me all you want.
But still I will love you.

Tell me that I'm a jerk. I know I am.

I'm Sorry

It all started from me. I am the one who is to be blame. I shouldn't have done that. I always never use the brains that god gave me. I'm sorry you cried because of me.

I gave her number to him. I made her love him. I made them together. If only I knew his history, I won't gave him her number. Now 2 girls fought because of this. Blame me people! Just blame me. I've always messed up people's life. When was the last time I did a good deed? I guess I've never done that.

I've been crying for 3 days. I can't help it. Whenever I'm alone, tears just drip from my eyes. I miss her so much. I miss hearing her voice before going to bed. I feel like I'm seriously useless.

Happiest Day Turns To Worst Day

Today, we struck our 1st month together. Never have I had this long relationship. It was kind of awkward for me. Planned to go some place where you can see everyone with their luggage. But we ended up lepaking at hougang.

Early morning, the sounds of my phone ringing can be heard. When I wanted to picked up, the fella hung up on me. I saw 2 messages. First was from my cousin, the other was from Anna. Anna said, 'U retain eh.' I thought it was a prank. So I asked her to call me. It was true. I'm retaining again. I tried my best to study. Its either I didn't study enough or I'm stupid. I guess I'm stupid. That's what my aunties use to say about me. Mom tried to appeal to the principal.

I went out of my house with that angry, dissapointment in my face. I was on the way to hougang. Everything was like normal. Baby was calling me every 10 minutes to check where am I. When I reached hougang mall, I didn't even get a call from baby. Something's wrong. So I just waited 5 minutes outside the mall, waiting for the phone to ring. It didn't happen. So I walked up to where she and her friends would always be. Finally we met at the last level. She said somthing's wrong with my phone. So I off-ed and on-ed it. The phone reads, 'SIM card registration failed'.

How am I going to contact with baby? I can't call, she can't call. Great! Only hope is through MSN. Now I'm sitting here while typing, waiting for her to get online. But I don't think it will happen. :(

I don't mind retaining again. But not contacting with my baby, is a nightmare. I can't imagine how life would get in the next few days.

Baby, wait for end of month kay? I promise you everything's going to be fine. I love you!

Story Of Life

Mom told me about a story of her friend who just passed away on Sunday, 12/10/2008. Her name was Rohani (not her real name). She died of cancer.

She was 7 months pregnant before marriage. And as usual, people would start talking bad things because of this. On her marriage day, it is obvious that there's a life inside her. But she kept herself up, never to give up hope. She was married to a man who was a manager of a big company. She thought live would be great with him.
Few months after her marriage, her father-in-law was bedridden and she was force to take care of him while her mother-in-law was enjoying outside.

Few years later, she had 3 children. She then start to have family problems. She had to find a job so that she could release her stress. One day, her brother came out of jail due to drugs. He came to her house with his girlfriend. Rohani brought them to her house, make it a home for them to stay. But things wasn't what she expected. The girlfriend of her brother really took the house as her own, controlling every single thing. She taught the daughters how to be rude to their mom. Rohani's husband fell for that girl. Rohani simply couldn't take it anymore so she applied for a divorce. That house has two names; the husband and her. But she didn't not fight for her rights. She left without the house and her children. When she left, she found out that she had cancer but she didn't tell anyone about it and simply just did nothing.

5 years later after telling her family members that she had cancer, she finally reunited with one of her daughters. Living in a small HDB flat at havelock road with her mother-in-law. Her mom came in to visit her. To her suprise, the house was messy and dirty. Its like a warzone. Her mom took her back home and took care of her. Then she died few months later.

On the other end, her ex-husband was still living with the girl. The girl was always not home. He, who was a supervisor of a big company was sacked. And now he's working as a school security guard. Her husband really regretted of his mistakes. Crying on her funeral can never bring her back to life.

This story taught me a lesson. When you're married, love someone who really loves and take care of the children. Not to love someone just because he/she makes you happy.

I Super Duper Miss You.

Its been more than 1 week since I last saw you dear. When can we meet again? I'm starting to get more and more bored every single minute without you. I can't live like this. 5 more days baby. Don't let it happen again on our day.

I getting tired of blogging. I have to post something, in order to make earthlings view this blog. I have to make more readers. But how? I'm trying my best to continue on my little story, but I've been so tired lately. Even typing takes alot of energy tau. But I promise I'll finish my story as soon as possible.

15/10/08 sucked my day. I got back my papers but not all. I heard I passed english, so I need to pass 2 more. I even heard I passed malay, 1 more subject! I failed POA. I got 12/100 for it. Great huh?
I did my best for Social Studies but confirm I'll fail cause I heard nobody passed that subject. I need 1 more subject to promote! How??

After school, I've planned to meet baby. I was so anxious to meet her, give her my warmest hug ever. But shit happens. Her mom (or so-called 'my mother-in-law'), told her to go back home fast. Fuck sia. When? When? When?!


baby! i want that handphone strap!

I Miss You So Much

Exams are over. Its time to play! I screwed up lots of subjects. POA is one of them. I can't really study much cause I was having fever back then. Even now, but my temperature isn't that high though. I took 6 pills yesterday; 2 paracetemol, 2 febs and 2 panadol. Now I'm having stomachache and have been shitting for the past few minutes.

I've been writing a short story. Something that I've always been wanting to do. Its still writen halfway. I'll publish it as soon as possible.

Guess what? I can't msg or call anybody. Bill not yet paid. Owe starhub more than $400. I don't know how to survive without being connected with my love who is at the other end of Singapore.
I miss my baby so much. ):

Attention Earthlings!

This blog will be dead in a few days. I'm quite busy lately. Fucking FYE! Still got 2 more days to suffer. I'll be back with something new for all to read, something that I've been wanting to do. So be back after the exams end.

Sorry for the inconvience cause!

Selamat Hari Raya!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA! MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN!
To those who I had argued, fight and talk back behind your back, you know who you are. Without apoplogy, things will get more fucked up. Without friends life would be boring. Stop the arguements, move on.


Firstly, I want to thank those peeps who wished me Happy Birthday. And thanks to those people who didn't bashed me sampai rabak2 ah. Thank god! Thanks to mom for keeping me for 16 years. On 2nd October 2008, I've been getting lots of text msges from almost everyone till my phone was lagging. It lagged for like 30 minutes ah. Musibot, susah siol nak reply. All I can remember who wished me first was my cousins, my sweet little baby, Zhao Liang, Ahmad and Diana. I was expecting her to text me cause I thought she was still mad at me.

I've got to go now. Tmr I'll be posting more. Bye!

Its All About You

Nadia oh Nadia,

kau lah yang aku cintai..

Woi! Nak main giler ke pe?

Actually I do love her, as a friend. That small eyed-freak, fast-growing ass! She has helped me alot. (..pause..) I mean I am the one who helped her alot. But still, she's the bestfriend I've ever had! There's times when our friendship is up and down. But still we're there for each other. Shocking when I received a hug from her, never in my life I thought of doing that to her. She's the type of girl who is too friendly, too caring till guys start falling in love with her. But her heart's with someone else, someone much more closer. I hate it when she says, 'Aku kesiankan ___ lah'. The end up ditching the guy, not so called ditched lah but ignore? Anyways, I'm done talking about her. Nanti die kembang pulak!

p.s. Balqis aku punye, paham!

Yesterday was fun! I didn't came school, cause I was dizzy in the morning AGAIN! Came down Tiong to meet friends, love ones! I told Nadia, ZhaoLiang and Ahmad that I'm going geylang, so they wanted to come along. I met babygirl, Farz and Sheila at geylang around 6+pm. Only Nadia was the only one wearing school uniform, kesian. Walked around then saw adik Nana, she gave me rokok! So kind of her. Me and Nadia bought Ramli Burger using ZhaoLiang's money. All ate on the grass, under a big tree. Mcm orang-orang kat luar Jurong East/Boon Lay Mrt Station every weekends. You know what I mean. Zaki and Ain came after that. ZhaoLiang and Zaki tried to gay with me! Haha, main giler ke pe? Then when its time to go home, Nadia was like a superstar! All the girls asking for her number, getting hugs. I sent my queen home, so I can't accompany Nadia home. While on the way to baby's house, Nadia called and told me that I left my earpiece in her bag. After sending baby home, I found out my hp batt's low. I can't call, text and listen to music from Eunos to Boon Lay, I'm so damn bored without music in my head!

When Teban around 4pm to take my earpiece from Nadia. Played our game while waiting for the bus to come. Ok, nothing else. I'm hungry! Bye!

What Happen To Us?

Damn, I'm really sorry why this shit must happen to us. What wrong have I done to you? I don't want to fight with you anymore, please. Can we be friends? We can't just be seperated for no reason right? For your info, I've been thinking of you. Seriously, you can ask Nadia, Ain, ZhaoLiang, Martin, all the friends that I'm close with. They all scolded me, especially Nadia and Ain. Its so hard to forget you eventhough I have my girl but she's cool with it. Can we be just friends?

I Love My Girlfie

'And now here's my secret, a very simple secret;
it's only with the heart that one can see rightly,
what is essential is visible to the eye'

Yes, yes I'm attach. I'm with someone who I feel that would love me more than I expected, who would care for me every single minute. She never get mad at me cause she always understands me. I love every bit of her. I want to spend every single day with her.

"ouh Danial you once meant everthing to me.
but i just think everything just change..
i'm sorry if i break your heart or anything
n waste your tears because of me..
i'm sorry.
so yeah be happy with who ever you choose..
thank you for the care n concern..
n you are a great listener n a really great friend..
i enjoy every second with you..
thank you so much!

so i guess right!
you ignore me this few days because you're att..
i noe i'm nort important tuh you anymore..
why didn't you tell me?
so i guess after this we won't be contacting..
i just hope for you be happy with the girl you have choosen..
so bye!(Danial)"


You didn't layan me not just for two days, its been awhile. You only text me when you're sad and bored, when you're happy and with your friends, you act as if I'm someone you don't know. You don't even give a fuck about me. You said you love me, well thats just a lie. How can you have feelings for me when you're attach with some other guy? This means you're not sincere to your love one. How can you have feelings for me when you rather lepak with that Sairi than lepaking with me. I sacrifise a day where I'm suppose to be in sch just to lepak with you the whole day but you don't care about me, you still want to lepak with him. I still wondered if you really love me, if I'm really important to you. Are you forced to say out all this? Well, I didn't even force you to. I meant everything to you? I don't meant a shit lah. What I am to you is a stepping stone, where you can step on it so you won't drown. That's who I am. I always got heartbroken by people, don't apologise to me, I'm used to it. You said you enjoy every second with me? Its been like less than 24 hours we spent together ah. I'm not the one ignoring you, you are. Remember teachers' day? You said you want to lepak with me? I text you alot of times but you didn't reply. She reason for that is you didn't feel the vibrations. That's a lame reason. But I keep every single thing to myself, waiting for the right time to burst. Well now is the time. I told you no matter what I'm still there for you but you said you don't need me. What are you trying to say? Everyone needs a friend. If you don't need me, well this is goodbye. I regret doing this to you. Goodbye Diana.