A Night That Changed Everything

A night in school completely changed my whole life. I was really down till I don't have anymore hope to live in this world. I felt like killing myself. I had my body balanced on a 15 storey building last night. It's not a joke. I did felt like killing myself. To end my life and to end the problems that I've cause for the whole world. I'm nothing but problems to everyone.

I asked myself, why should I end my life for the wrongs that I've done? Why can't I improve on it? Why can't I learn the mistakes that I've done and change myself to a better person? Questions start popping out of my head. One by one, I can't answer them.

$25.69. The numbers from the taxi meter was read by a malay taxi driver. He charged me with only $20. He said, "Simpanlah duit kau, you'll need it". All I did was smiled and thanked him. I stepped out of the vehicle and I saw the quote written on a wall of the school. That as many hands built a house, So many hearts make a school. I was outside Gan Eng Seng School. The school that had changed my life, changed me from a boy to a man. I was thankful that I posted to GESS.

I tried climbing up a window of the stairs, but it was too high for me. I can't get to the classroom blocks so I just laid down on the arena. Head's facing up to the dark sky. I closed my eyes, picturing every moment that I had since I entered this school. Suddenly, someone tapped me on my shoulders. I was shocked and scared at the moment, when someone asked why I was in school. I was trespassing, that was the reason why I was scared, afraid of getting scolded by someone higher than me. An old malay uncle, in his 50s or 60s, was the one who tapped on my shoulders.

"I'm stressed up," I murmured to him in malay. He asked why and what happen. I got up to my legs and started walking.

I told every single details that happen in my whole life. Not even one was not told. We sat outside GESSCOVE. He told me about a story of a man who nearly lost everything in his life due to his rudeness and selfishness. The story even had a meaning in it. I was told not to share it with anyone. What is told there should be left there.

"God gives us one chance to live but many chances for us to change into a better person," he whispered to my ears and left. I tried to follow him but his pace was too fast. He turned to the classroom block and he was gone. Nowhere to be found. Never in my life, I've seen an old man walked that fast before. I clearly forgot to ask him questions. Who is he? Why is he there? What was his motive to talk to me about that story? One thing that really gives me the creeps, he does looks like my late grandfather. Was it just my imagination? I don't even know.

As I walked home, the words that he said kept repeating in my head. I realised I was in the wrong. Its time for a change. I'm sorry for everything. I swear to you, everything has changed.